My dominant omega- Taegguk

it hurts

The next morning they ate breakfast together again, Jeongguk had bought some lactose free products for Taehyung. He himself was eating yoghurt. Jeongguk was just mindlessly signing about some stupid collega from his job while spooning down his yoghurt but Taehyung was watching him with piercing gaze. He thought about the stuff that happened last night again, Jeongguk who jerked off in the bathroom, the delicious scent of arousal that made Taehyung want to pin the younger down and fuck him senseless. They had lived together for almost a month and now the sexual attraction for Jeongguk that had always prickled under his skip flared up. He had swore off bottoming a long time ago but Jeongguk didn't seem like a dominant top luckily. He looked like the type of human who wanted nothing more than to get his hole stuffed full. Taehyung's thoughts were starting to wander to places they shouldn't be going. Him fucking Jeongguk against the wall, on the bed, in all positions he could think off. Could the ravenette moan? Or was it impossible since he was mute? He imagined the tiny noises the older would make, those big doe eyes glossy with tears from being fucked so hard.

Taehyung groaned slightly but Jeongguk didn't seem to notice it. A few minutes later, with the red-haired continuing to fantasize about fucking Jeongguk, a sharp slap landed on the side of his head. He shook his head, startled from the sudden impact and looked right in Jeongguk's angry eyes. He seemed angry and disappointed and Taehyung was confused.

'Are you even listening?' he signed sadly.

Oh.

"Sorry, I was lost in thought"

Jeongguk pouted and turned his head away.

"I'm gonna go to work then"

Taehyung wanted to reach for him but there was no way to explain without exposing his dirty thoughts.

"I'm sorry, Ggukkie"

Jeongguk just smiled. It was sensitive for the younger because his whole life people didn't care to listen to him, didn't care to learn ASL, didn't care to see what he was trying to say. So now that a person that knew how he felt and actually cared about him did it too, it shouldn't matter but he still felt a slight pang in his heart.

If only he knew tho...

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Taehyung moaned loudly as he came all over his hand, Jeongguk was off a customer right now so he finally decided to get rid of his pent up sexual frustration. He stroked himself through his orgasm and only stopped when he winced in oversensitivity.

His relationship with Jeongguk was pure friendship but he couldn't help imagine how it would feel to have the boy's heat wrapped around him, to feel the flushed skin of his body laying on his own. He almost got hard thinking about it again but decided to pull his pants up and go do something productive.

After he washed his hands he went to the kitchen to do the dishes from this morning. While scrubbing his hands in circles to clean them he thought about Jeongguk again. This time the thoughts weren't horny, they were more scary though. It was Jeongguk cooking and Taehyung circling his hands around the younger's waist, pressing strawberry kisses on his neck causing Jeongguk to giggle. Taehyung's eyes flew open when he felt a warm feeling creeping up in his chest. No, he couldn't think this! What he had with Jeongguk was nothing more than being roommates, it was as simple as that. A person like Taehyung could never fall in love and find happiness, everyone around him always made sure to beat that into his head.

"You should be grateful I even want to look at you, disgusting omega"

He still heard the words ringing in his mind, it made him wanna throw up.

"All you're good for is bearing pups, never forget that"

A single tear fell from his eye. It dripped on the floor and not long after he was crying. The tears rolling non-stop over his cheeks. His body shook with the sobs but he just let it happen. All the memories came flooding back in, all the memories he had repressed by trying to make friends with Jeongguk.

How could he want more than that, Jeongguk would be absolutely disgusted if he heard what Taehyung had done. He was a murderer, he killed his alpha, his mate.

The tiny voice in the back of his mind told him that it was justified, that alpha had taken everything from him, had mated him, raped him, marked him without consent. The alpha deserved it. But that voice was suppressed quickly with a massive amount of self-hatred. He deserved it, he deserved everything that had happened to him and he was disgusting. How dare he kill his alpha, his mate. It's not because he wasn't satisfied with his life that he should change it, he didn't have a choice in this. Not when he was just an omega. A touched, dirty omega that killed his alpha. He had zero rights on a happy life and it should stay that way.

His mind wandered to the encounter with Jeongguk in the kitchen, where he said he liked him. Oh god, he was so delusional. It was easy to put on a confident character in front of Jeongguk, but he wanted to let go sometimes too. Because when it all came crashing back down it was hard, it broke him.

It took a few hours to stop crying, he felt relieved when his sobs had turned into slight sniffling but also tired, his eyelids feeling like they weigh way too much to hold his eyes open. A soft yawn left his mouth and he dragged himself to the bedroom, letting himself fall on the bed, his eyes closing the second his back hit the mattress.

He should sleep now, he could worry about the affection he felt for Jeongguk later.