forced ~ sakuatsu

5

the school day ended, sakusa was gonna go over to atsumus house in an hour so sakusa decided to text his cousin

sakusa:
hi
komori
komori

komori:
sakusa ? why are you texting me what's wrong

sakusa:
i need help, i'm confused

komori:
and you've come to your favorite cousin for help

sakusa:
you're my only cousin

komori:
tomatoe tomatoe

sakusa:
are you gonna help me or not

komori:
calm down mr.clean, what do you need help with

sakusa:
i started having this erm weird feeling in my stomach around this person recently

komori:
can you describe the feeling ?

sakusa:
well it's mostly just in my stomach, it feels like tingly if that makes sense, and also i don't feel disgusted around him, and my heart beat started going quicker

komori:
OH SONEIDHE MY GOD, SAKUSA YOU LIKE SOMEONE, I NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD HAPPEN

sakusa:
no, i don't like him he's annoying

komori:
yeah yeah but what you describe is having a crush

sakusa:
he hates me so wouldn't work out

komori:
how do you even know

sakusa:
because we both hate eachother and always have

komori:
but why

sakusa:
he thinks im a judgy person and i think he's obnoxious

komori:
but is he obnoxious ?

sakusa:
... no he's not

komori:
then you have no reason to dislike him

sakusa:
yeah but he hates me

komori:
then you're gonna have to win his heart

sakusa:
but how, my phobia. i'd probably end up pushing him away when i don't even mean to do it.

komori:
try to get better for him, make him happy and not mad and annoyed

sakusa:
... ugh whatever bye

sakusa turned off his phone, and sighed fuck atsumu, fuck feelings, and fuck this damn phobia stupid everything

sakusa decided to clean to pass time, and to stop thinking these absurd things.. are they really absurb, besides if i make him like him, i'd be no use since my phobia won't even let me touch him