Professor

Jealousy

𝙲𝚢𝚛𝚞𝚜

{Yesterday}

When class was over I was heading out to my car to go see my girlfriend for lunch. I didn't have my next class to teach for 2 hours so I had time. When I got to my car I heard the sound of a car driving by, I turned around and saw Josie and Jesse in his car together. I got in my car and slammed the door shut angrily. I can't stand seeing him around her, I just know he isn't good for her at all. I'm good for her, I deserve her and she deserves me. We want each other, why the hell does it have to be so complicated. I just wish we didn't have to hide our relationship.

Once I reach my girlfriends store I walk inside seeing her on the phone at her desk scheduling an appointment for someone. I smile at her but deep down I feel like shit. Yes, I like Josie a lot, and I care about her so much but I feel terrible for doing this to Mary. Maybe our relationship isn't the most romantic but we have been together for a long time. And I do care for her and I still have love for Mary, but it's just not the same as it was before. I need to come out and tell her the truth.

"Hey honey, how are you?" Mary says hanging up the phone

"Hey babe. I'm good and you?" I say pecking her lips

"I'm good, ready for lunch?" She says standing up gathering her things

"I'm ready, let's go. What are you in the mood for?" I say taking her hand and walking out the store

"I have been craving Panera Bread all day." She laughs locking her store

"Panera it is." I say

We take a short drive down to Panera Bread and head inside to order our food. Once we sit down to eat, I sit there quietly while eating. I don't know how to tell her, like how the hell am I suppose to say I don't want to be with her anymore? How am I suppose to tell her that I'm starting to fall for someone else? I mean of course I'm not going to tell her who. Fuck this is going to be so hard.

"Cyrus, what's wrong? Why are you so quiet babe?" She says reaching for my hand

"Huh? Oh uh there's just something on my mind right now." I say sighing

"Like what? Talk to me babe." She says

I look at her sweet and beautiful face, she looks worried and concerned which makes me feel even more terrible. I sit up closer in my seat and take both her hands in mine and stare at her. But before I can say anything she speaks up.

"Who is it?" She says softly

"What? What do you mean?" I say nervously

"Whoever your seeing behind my back or whoever you are falling for Cyrus. Tell me. Please." She says sadly

"Wait.. how did you know? When did you figure it out?" I say shocked

"It's obvious, I'm not stupid or blind. And you and I aren't the same. We've been together for so long, we have no spark, no affection anymore. So I just figured it out." She says crossing her arms

"You aren't wrong, I am seeing someone else. And I am falling for this girl. I'm.. I am so sorry." I say sympathetically

"Who is it Cyrus?" She says ignoring everything I just said 

"I can't tell you Marylin. I just can't, I'm sorry. But I just needed to confess that, and you're right. We have no spark anymore, no affection, no adventure or anything. We haven't had any of that in over a year. But that's not the reason I started seeing this girl. I just met her and we just.. I don't know, hit it off." I say

"If I'm being honest I've been feeling the same way. I don't feel the love anymore between us. I feel like we're just more friends than a couple." She says

"Really? You have?" I say with relief

"Yes. I want to experience being single again, fully independent. I wanna go further in my store, I want to go out and date around. I just want to enjoy my young life right now." She says

"I still have love for you, and I do care for you Mary I want you to know that. But go, go and enjoy your life to the fullest. I hope you go so far and become very successful with the store." I say smiling

"Thank you Cyrus. And whoever you are seeing I hope the best for you two. Let's finish up here and head back." She says

We finish our lunch and get back in my car so I can take her back to her store. I feel so much better about this whole situation. She isn't as angry as I thought she would be. She wants to be single again, she felt the same way about our relationship so thankfully this was a mutual split. I feel so much relief and peace right now.

I pull up to Mary's store and park in the front so she can get out. She gives me a goodbye kiss on the cheek and wishes the best for me. She gets out and heads back inside her store, I pull out of the parking space and drive back to the college campus.

***

{Present Day}

𝙹𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎

I'm sitting in my dorm room alone, Toni is gone at her class. I'm getting ready for my first class of the day. Finishing my shower I slip on my undergarments then a red long sleeve one piece. I grab my pair of black ripped jeans and put them on. I put on my perfume, deodorant and my jewelry. I grab my backpack and phone walking over to the door. I slip on my socks and white vans heading out the door locking it behind me.

As I walk my door I get a call on my phone from Cyrus. I stare at my phone smiling as I answer it.

"Hey you." I say smiling

"Hey Josie, I have some news to tell you." He says

"Oh yeah? What is it?" I say walking out of the building

"So.. you know Marylin right?" He says

"Of course I do. Your girlfriend." I say a little upset

"Well, she isn't my girlfriend anymore. We just broke up Josie." He says

"Wait what? Really?" I say

"Yes, we were at lunch together and she suspected that I was seeing someone else. I didn't tell her it was you, but I admitted to her that I am. She admitted that she actually wants to be single and experience being young and single. So it was actually a mutual breakup." He says with a hint of happiness

"Oh my god that's great. Now it won't be so bad and I won't feel bad doing anything." I say

"So I have an idea for you." He says

"What's your idea?" I say

"How about you come over to my place tonight. We can finally spend some time together without worrying about someone seeing us." He says

"I would love to Cyrus. But wait, doesn't Marylin live with you?" I say

"No, we don't live together actually. We used to but, she ended up wanting to live alone a while ago and so did I, so she moved out." He says

"Then I'll be there at 6:30 tonight. Want me to pick up some food for us?" I say reaching the building my class is in

"That'd be great. See you then Josie." He says happily

"Bye, see you" I say and hang up

I take a deep breath smiling widely slipping my phone in my back pocket. I walk to my class and walk inside sitting at my seat. During my entire class I can't stop thinking about my conversation with Cyrus, I keep thinking about how we can finally be alone and spend time together. I am so excited and happy for tonight. Please just let this day go by fast so I can go and see him.