Professor

Talk To Me

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It's been 2 days since I last spoke to Josie and I've never felt so alone in my own home. She still hasn't stopped calling and texting me, and of course I haven't been replying to her. I know I should talk to her and communicate but I really just can't, something about when she admitted how she still loved Tyler made my brain explode. It's like the second those words came out of her mouth made me lose it. I want to talk to her but I can't bring myself to do it, I have no idea what the hell is going to happen to us.

I've been staying inside my place for the past 2 days barley even doing anything. I just wake up, eat, clean, sit around and go to sleep. I feel like I'm going to go insane if I stay one more day in here alone. Forcing myself to get up I decide to go down to my apartment gym room. Putting on some gym clothes I head out and jog down to the gym room.

Once I arrive I begin to do some warm ups before really getting into it. As I'm stretching I feel my phone vibrating in my pocket, already knowing who it is I slowly pull my phone out and stare at my phone ringing. Pushing my stubbornness aside I press lightly on the green button and hold my phone to my ear.

"Oh God, you finally answered. Cyrus I know that you most likely despise me now, you don't want to see me or talk to me but please I beg of you to let me explain. If you don't want me to come over I won't, we can meet somewhere. But please, I miss you so much and I need to explain myself." Josie says with a hint of hope

I stand there quietly as all these thoughts rush through my head. I take a breath and finally speak up.

"Fine. Coffee shop that you always go to, in 2 hours. I'll see you there." I say dryly

"Wait really? You'll let me explain?" She says with relief

"Yes Josette. At the gym, gotta go." I say and hang up

I sigh putting my phone in my pocket and begin working out. I keep going at it trying to get everything off my mind but it sinks deeper in my mind the more I try to force it out. An hour later I finish up my work out with some more stretches then head back up to my apartment. Once I get home I take a quick hot shower and get ready to see Josie. Throwing on a pair of grey sweats with a matching grey hoodie I slip on some shoes and walk out my place grabbing my wallet, phone and keys.

Pulling out my phone I open the texts with Josie and quickly text her letting her know I'm on the way. Luckily the coffee shop isn't too far from my apartment building. Once I get there I immediately see her through the window sitting at a corner table on her phone with two coffees. I can't help but smile seeing her, fuck I miss her so much. She looks up at notices me outside staring at her causing her to smile lightly. I walk in and quietly sit across from her staying dead silent.

"Cyrus.. I'm so happy you agreed to see me. I've missed you, a lot." She says sadly putting her hand on my arm

"Yeah, well I wanted to hear your explanation. So, explain." I say pulling my arm away

"I.. I uh got you a coffee, just the way you like it. Black coffee, 2 sugars no cream." She says pushing the cup to me

"Thank you, I appreciate it." I say taking a sip

"Okay, so I know how you must be feeling right now Cyrus. I know I've already said this a million times, but I am so sorry. That argument got out of hand and I said something I never should have said it." She says

"Are you really sorry? Or are you just sorry that now I know the truth and I haven't spoken or seen you in 2 days?" I say

"Babe.. Cyrus. I am genuinely so sorry, yes I do miss you and miss talking to you but I am seriously so sorry. I love you so much, I love you more than I ever loved someone. Did I love Tyler? Yes I did, but notice how I said 'did'. Cyrus I don't love Tyler anymore, I know I said that I still loved him but it's not true." She says staring at me