Professor

Love Him

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After that ordeal in Cyrus's classroom after class finished broke my heart. I have been feeling so upset and sad since that night in the hospital when I broke up with him. After that day I haven't spoken to him and it's been driving me mad. I can barley sleep at night, I miss sleeping next to him and waking up next to him. I was sane, I was okay and I was happy when I was around him. Even if I was staying with him because of Tyler I still loved every second of it. I want it back, I want him back.

My last class of the day just ended and I can finally just go back to my dorm room and just rest. I need sleep, but I can't even sleep without him. I can't.

"Hey girl." Toni says as I walk in our dorm

"Hey Toni, what's up?" I say taking off my shoes

"I'm worried about you, I am really worried about you Jo." She says coming next to me

"Worried? Why?" I say scoffing lightly 

"Don't play dumb with me, you know exactly why. You haven't been sleeping that well.. you broke up with Cyrus. And Tyler is dead.. even after all the things he did to you, you are still so hurt that he's dead am I right?" She says with sympathy

"You're right, I haven't been sleeping well at all. And I am so.. I'm so heartbroken about Cyrus. But about Tyler, I'm more upset about his mom. I feel so bad for her, even after everything he did that's still her son. And he was her only child and now he's dead." I say holding in my tears

"Do you love Cyrus?" She says sitting next to me

"What? It's too soon for me to say that or to feel that.. no." I say looking down

"Oh come on, you have been having dreams about him non stop. You are so different without him, you are sad and more angry. You have changed in these few days without him. You know damn well that you love him." She says

"Toni.." I begin to say

"No Josie. You love him, it's okay to say that honey. It's okay to feel that so soon after everything with Tyler. He loves you, and Josie you know deep down you love him. So you know what? Fuck whatever that Officer says, go and love him. Love Cyrus." She says grabbing my hand

I feel tears run down my face as she says that, I close my eyes for a moment. She's right, she is completely right. I love him, I love him so much. I really can't stand being away from him, not around him. I can't bare it anymore. I nod to her and wipe my tears standing up putting my shoes back on and grabbing my things.

"Now tell me, what are you going to do Josie?" She says smiling 

"I'm gonna go get my man." I say and rush out our dorm room

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When I saw Mary today we got into a huge argument. Somehow she found out that the person I broke up with her for was Josette, I don't know how and I don't know from who but she did. I ended up telling her the whole truth and that ended up with her smacking me across the face and completely leaving my life for good. And honestly it really doesn't matter anymore, it's no use. Josie and I aren't even together anymore.

Laying in my bed alone once again makes me miss Josie even more than I already do. Just imagining her face and hearing her voice brings tears to my eyes. I take a deep breath and sit up in my bed, there's no use in trying to sleep. I can't, I keep trying to force myself to sleep but every time I close my eyes I imagine Josie.

"Fucking hell!" I yell out angry

Getting up from my bed and I walk out of my room and sit on the living room couch. I turn on my TV flipping through the channels until something good comes on. As I'm doing that I land on an episode of Criminal Minds and start watching it. Slowly the thought of Josie leaves my mind as I force myself to focus on the show. In the middle of the show I hear someone knocking on my door continuously. Groaning to myself I pause the show and stand up walking over to my door I put my face closer to the door but before I can say anything, the sweet voice that I love so much rings through the door making my heart skip a beat.