Mom, alone in a chamber. Her eyes deep with fear. So thin I can see her bones.
" Why did you do this to me!? What did I ever do to you!?"
Then she jumped up and wrapped her boney hand around my neck. Just as I thought I was about to die, she let go.
"I'm not going to let you die this easy. You will live knowing you killed your own mother. "
She took out a knife and stabbed it in her heart. She moved the knife and cut a square in her skin so her flesh fell off in a bloody bundle. I can see her heart beat. Then she jabbed at it and the pumping stopped. She collapsed on the ground and said,
"I hate you Lexi and I dread the day I gave birth to you."
She closed her eyes and her breathing stopped, completely.
I jump and realize that it was all just a dream. Even so, I still can't shake off the feeling that mom is in jail because of me. Wait. It is because of me. There's no way I can go back to sleep with that dream still fresh in my mind, so why try. What can I do now?
I need to check my email! I turn on the laptop and log on to Yahoo. I scan through the articles and found nothing interesting. Just as I was going to give up, I found something that caught my eye.
Mom kills child and sentenced to 27 years in prison. I double clicked it and saw that it read.....
Just 5 months ago, police has found the mom that killed her own child. The mom tried to escape the police by flying to Korea, but they found her in time. Just yesterday, the mom was sentenced to 27 years in prison. It was said that her other daughter left because 45 year old mom was abusing her. Now Bethany Everlark is in prison guarded by 40 guards.
Frantically, I scrolled up and found a picture of ........my mom! I have not cried ever since I got here, but I just can't help it. I knew mon was in jail because of me, but they don't need to remind me that!
In the room next door, I hear shuffling. Dad! I can't let him know. There is already enough stress for him, I can't let there be more. I slam my laptop shut and place it back. I jump back in my bed and pretended to sleep. The door opened slightly at first, but then it swung open. My dad seemed to notice that I was awake because he sat down beside me and asked softly, "Lex, what's wrong?"
" Just a bad dream." I say without opening my eyes. He didn't seem to be convinced, but didn't ask for more information.
"Look, Lex, you know you're my baby girl and I don't want anyone to hurt you. I just still can't accept that you are growing up and that you're going to leave me soon. I love you too much to let go and I just can't" I stopped him by saying,
"Daddy, you know I love you, I would never leave you, even if I grow up."
He leaned in and hugged me. Then he left. That conversation almost got my mind off the subject of my mom.
It took me a whole minute to realize that Justin is awake. " I know you're awake, you don't have to pretend."
" My baby knows everything." he replies.
" Well, I think we can all go back to sleep now." The truth is, I can't, I won't be able to fall asleep, but I still try and eventually I fell asleep.
