Paint It Away

Paint It Away

 

I wake up in a heavy sweat after having one of the worst night terrors yet since the capital fell.

I quickly look around the room, he’s not here ‘where could he be’ i thought to myself quickly roll out of bed and walk towards the door and poke my head out.

I see a light coming from the door at the end of the hall and i instantly know its him.

I walk down the hall and open the door.

I poke my head in and see him there paint brush in hand quickly making short harsh brush strokes on the canvas which seems to be a picture of a man getting ripped apart by mutts.

I quickly walk up behind him and take his hand in mine and slow it down to make long soft brush strokes on the canvas.

“Peeta slow down you will tear a hole in the canvas”  i say in a hushed tone.

“im sorry katniss im just feeling a bit sad “ he says then looks away.

”Peeta why are you sad” I ask.

“its just that whenever i get night terrors you sit there and wait for me to wake up then you comfort me but I can’t do that for you i always have a panic attack its just that i feel useless whenever you have one which makes me feel guilty for not being able to help” he says while still avoiding eye contact.

“peeta you have no control over it and i understand why you cant comfort me i don’t need you to just having you with me comforts me” I try to comfort him.

“no its just not fair theres not a single thing i can do because if i try i just manage to freak you out even more and that makes me even feel more guilty” he says as he turns to look me in the eye.

 “and sometimes that guilt just gets to be to much and i come to the art room to paint my feelings away” he sayd noticeably on the verge of tears.

“Peeta as much as you wish you could paint the feelings away you cant but you will always have me and our daughter so no matter how much guilt you feel always remember that” i say.

“now lets get back to sleep before we wake her up” i say before i try to head to the door but he grabs my wrist slightly.

“just let me do something before we go back to bed okay” he asks.

“Okay” i say before he pulls me into a long passionate kiss.

“There did that help” I ask.

“Definatly”.

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~Zach