Chasing The Storm

Chapter 1:(Intro) I

Hey Reader,
This book and story is filled with love and pleasure,
This first chapter is an introduction and is boring to people who aren't fans of poetry, so feel free to skip to chapter, this book is just an important touch to my real life problem and its deviated by love and how it changes you in time and how self love is important to females and how loving your self should come first. I only suggest this material for females over 13 years old because of topics such as violence,abuse,harassment, and sexual comments.
Anyways enjoy!!
--- Jaylynn

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Grace's pov
I never felt so hollow , I'm in a world filled with people I barely know and I don't want to know them. I'm that typical teenage girl tight jeans with a bunch of holes in them, black belt, black

mascara, smart attitude. Things changed since everything I HAVE CHANGED!!I mean what's new? I was a freshman when I met him, but he's also changed, WE'VE CHANGED!!! He doesn't look me in

the eyes anymore he doesn't care if I'm out with someone new, he's just glad I got lose. I mean how did me and him get so distant, we never were able to do this for so long but here we are not even talking and my mind chases

to know what your doing , or who you're with, who you're holding in those arms that made me feel safe once. It has occurred more than once and it's just how? How did we change our minds in a day when it took months for us to say what we wanted then? Or maybe I wasn't what he wanted!

Maybe things were supposed to g wrt out of hand , maybe it's jealousy that broke me and him apart but will never know because we both went opposite directions and I don't know where he went or what he's doing or who's in his bed.Its just once I knew him he was there , I looked for him, I craved him, it was just a mystery I wanted to solve but never could.

Our lives were complicated and they still are. Part of me wants to show up and demand for an answer and respect, But part of me think's there's not a reason to. Like I'm an empty garbage bag ripping in half.Its something I'm scared of , I'm tired of not having his love an not being apart of his life even if it involve trouble and sex. I'm a sucker for him and would give anything even if I had to open my legs just from him to stay but I'm scared of the pain and the pure innocence I have still left but it nowhere near the love I feel for him.

I would die for him, cry for him, lie for him,jump in front of a grenade for him , just to be with him. Its sick but he's what I want and what I need and it's hard to believe but it's TRUE and it's something I got to bare with and I'll be okay with some pains as long as he stays.

I love Him and that should matter and it does to me and I will not stop unless something goes wrong, I seek for yismlove and his touch the way he use to look at me have me so much and billions of butterflies flying in my tummy. Make me arch at his wonderful name, I will praise it , I'm an pure white flower and I shall use this in my pleasure ways.

To be continued.......
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Thanks for reading love!
Remember you're are beautiful!
-Jaylynn