Trashy x Wizard Oneshots

🥀 tears 🥀

Hello :D

Hope you enjoy this!

also this is angst, I've never done it before so it'll be bad.

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Self harm (like not that bad but yea)

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I looked at her beautiful face breathing heavy and short breaths. I didn't know if I could do it, I knew they would kick me out. She said it would be fine, but I'm not dumb. I know it's not going to be. My vision goes blurry, I feel the cold tears run down my cheeks.

"Please don't cry" she said softly, god she's to good for me. Everything is to good. She deserves better! I clench my hands into the soft fabric of her hoodie, pulling her closer. I don't deserve her but I can't let her go. She means to much to me, I love her to much.

"They're not going to hate you.." she whispered into my ear hugging me.

I pulled away and looked at her, "yes they are! They're all homophobic and bratty!", tears flowing down my face now. She looked at me, pulled me closer to her and kissed my forehead, whispering words that I didn't catch. Why was I such a problem? I made everything horrible! I should just-

"Ugh!" I yelled pulling away from her and getting up running to the bathroom. I locked myself in and looked at the mirror, seeing myself. My face red from crying, tears still sliding down my cheeks. I look over at the door when I hear her knocking and rattling the door knob. She was yelling for me to open up, but I couldn't. I didn't want to be near her right now.

"PLEASE OPEN UP BABE" she yelled, my beautiful girlfriend yelling? I couldn't remember the last time she did that. I made her yell? God I'm such a horrible girlfriend. I felt a pain in my head from wear I hit myself. Ow. God I can hit hard-

"IM GOING TO GET THE KEY! PLEASE BE OK" I heard her run off. I slid to the floor, my whole body shaking when I sobbed. Why am I so messed up? Why do I get this sad? Why about those people that have cut me out of there lives? I still give them money for food and everything so why do they hate me? Oh yea, because I'm gay. I look up to see the bathroom door open and I reached out my hands for her. She hugged me sobbing into my shoulder. She looked me in the eyes and kissed me.

"Please never do that again" her voice was shaky. I just nod in response because I'm still crying and I could never be able to speak right know. She put her head back onto my shoulder and put her hand through my hair. We sat there on the bathroom floor holding each other for what seemed like hours but was probably only 20 minutes before she broke our hug and stood up. She put her hands on my armpits and lifted me up carrying me to bed.

"We don't have to tell them that your dating me" she whispered as she slid into bed next to me. And right then those were the best words I could here.

"I love you Wizard"

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I hope you liked this!

As I said this was my first time writing angst so Idk if it was good. Please tell me if it was and give me feedback :)

This wasn't edited sorry