Loving Her

Part 12

Lisa's POV

I took a deep breath and  walked out of her room with my shakey legs and I also felt my sweat on my neck rolling down to my back, and I find that arousing.... I swear something cursed my body to feel this type of arousal in just a mere touch and I'm hard as an ancient steel right now, Fuck!

I entered the bathroom and did what I should do with my little me and took a shower. Lucky I was wearing loose PJ's or else Little me would be very visible.

I stepped out of the Comfort room and the smell of Beacon and eggs filled my nostrils. Hhmmm

But before following that smell which I'm sure came from the kitchen were Jennie spends most if her time when were here. I first went back in her room to get dressed.

I honestly don't wanna go to work but, This doesn't happen very often it's just once a month so I guess I'll just do it even though I'm gonna miss Jennie a lot and my mind would probably wonder off somewhere.

I sighed and grabbed my shoes before walking out of Jennie's room and followed the aroma of coffee and beacon, Which lead me to her kitchen.

"I gotta go." I said to her while I was putting my shoes on. She's facing the stove and I bet she didn't notice me because She shrieked when I spoke.

"shit! You scared me!" She said and took deep breaths before she resumed cooking.

"Oops sorry." I said and was about to walk out.

"Wait..." She said in a low voice. I barely heard it. I turned around anyways.

I just stared at her with a smile and waited for her to say something. I saw her looking at me with a spatula on her hand and a glint of irritation in her eyes and that got me confused.

"Your not gonna eat?" She asked with her bitch tone. I swear she sounds like a mom when she does that. Which I find cute but hot mixed.

"I'm running late and you're still cooking So..." I said and looked at the door as if saying (I gotta go) To her.

"So?" She asked and arched her brows. Damn so bossy... I sighed and told myself to keep it together.

I guess this is what I find difficult about her. She's very bossy.. and I'm not used to it. Although she uses it in a good cause but still... I have something important to do and it only happens once a month. I can't be late to that.

"So I should go right now." I said with my straight, conversation ending tone and started walking to the door again. I know it's rude considering this is her house but I really don't like getting bossed like that. Especially if it's for something like this. Even though I would most likely be occupied by the thoughts of her, I can't just ditch it with that excuse. I still need to try and focus.

"Lis!" She called me. I held the door knob tightly. God damnit! This is usually the time where I tell the girl or whoever I'm dating to fuck off cause their starting to mingle with my life and shit. But hell I can't do that to Jennie even though she's at my last nerve. I leaned my head on the door and thought about calming things and wait for my right mind to come... Shit Lisa! I guess that didn't help. now I feel guilty on turning my back on her.

"What?" I said in a calm tone, not turning to look at her.

"A-atleast bring some to work.....I  don't want to have left overs."She said. She stutered at first but became firm at the last words.

Is this because I was sexually frustrated? Or Do I just feel like being an asshole today?or worse I'm just an arrogant mother fucker. What is wrong with me?!

I softly bumped my head on the door feeling embarassed. I don't want her to feel uncomfortable yet I'm the one who keeps giving her the reason to feel uncomfortable.

I didn't want to look at her cause I might faint cause of humiliation for myself, If you just know how cringey this is. But I know I have to apologize whether I like it or not.

Okay Lisa this is your fault! face it!

I took deep breaths, but before I could turn around and tell her that I'd love to just stay here and eat breakfast with her and go to work together and hope for her to say yes.

I felt her presence beside me. I slowly and discreetly moved my eyes to the side to look at her and I saw her leaning on the door as well her hands folded on her chest and eyeing me like she's waiting for me to explain. I quickly closed my eyes and gulped. I turned around eyes still closed and leaned my back at the door.

"What's wrong? During the last 5 months you never acted like this. Something wrong with your job?" She asked calmly and carefully like she was afraid to trigger me again.

I pinched my nose and opened my eyes.

"I uh- Uhm.." I couldn't utter a single word. I don't know why I acted that way.

I felt her tug the shoulder part of my suit making me look at her.

I looked at her cat eyes and I just drift. all my emotions for her I just let it drift. It's like were admitting that we like each other but with our eyes.

"I'm sorry." I said.

"I was just frustrated I guess." I added.

"So ur gonna be an asshole whenever your Frustrated?" She asked. With her disgusted look. but I didn't take any offense. I know that my attitude is bad. especially if I couldn't do what I want and   When I can't have what I want. Like a fucking brat. I was used on getting what I want and doing whatever I want. I was an only child and only grandchild. I was spoiled rotten and I became rich. like filthy rich. Maybe me being rich was just a disguise of my karma.... A karma for my bad attitude.... and it made me alone... and I deserve it.

Who would stay with someone like me? I can't even take care of my company... Heck if Bam resigns my company would drop. I don't even fit there... I don't have a degree... I don't have any talent. It was just pure luck.

and I dreamed for having a Jennie Kim? what a joke. She's clean, Kind, Smart, Competent, and does her job.

this thought answered all of my questions.

The reason why I couldn't jave Jennie Kim was because....

I don't deserve her.

She's better off without me. I'm just a maggot for her attetion.

I sighed and kept staring at her eyes.

"Yes. I'm an asshole everytime I get frustrated. I'm a brat and I don't like waiting. I don't like the feeling of not getting what I want and I'm frustrated with a lot of things right now. So I'm really sorry." I said.

"You're a trillionaire what can't you have?" She asked in a calm voice and her forehead is creased.

YOU!

"Nothing." I said and giggled.

"Lis I swear you have a problem. you were just mad and shit earlier and now you're laughing?"She said.

"Yep.... Anyway I do appreciate you cooking me breakfast but I can buy some take outs later sooo toodle looo." I said in a hurry while opening the door and leaving the building.

well if your gonna end things might as well end it quick.