Innocence.

Chapter 4

Mágoa
A heartbreaking feeling that leaves long lasting trances visible in gestures and facial expressions.

Ambers POV
I sat In bed until I heard a knock at my door. I groaned getting out of bed. "Who is it?" I said opening the door "Kingston?"

"Yeah hey what's up." he said as he walked into my room and saw all the books on the floor.

"I really don't feel like going to class today sorry." I said going back over to my bed and sitting down.

"What? Why." he asked sitting next to me and interlocking our hands together.

I told him about what Draco said and what he did. "But you cannot tell Draco. Any of this."

I remembered quidditch tryouts where today "fuck quidditch is today." I mumbled as I got up and went to my closet and got on my uniform and whipping my tears off my cheeks.

"Hey I am sure you can do it another time-" he said.

I cut him off "no I have to go today." I said as I picked up my broom. "Come on I have to lock up my dorm." I laughed getting my key.

"Are you sure-"

"Yes just come on." I put on a fake laugh.

We walked out and I ran to the quidditch tryouts. I got there and Ginny weasley was the only other girl there trying out. I saw Blaise and ran up to him. "Hey."

"Hey what's up." he said giving me a hug.

"Well I am obviously here to try out and don't worry I will go easy on you." I laughed.

"Oh piss off." he scoffed turning away for a minute.

"Ok well good luck. " I smiled as Draco came over with his broom in his hand.

"Hey no good luck for me?" He pouted as I turned to him.

"No." I said and walked off picking up my broom. All the slytherin boys laughed as I did.

I am trying out for the keeper because I have very fast reflexes. "Ok ravenclaw and slytherin will go against each other and hufflepuff and gryffindor will do the same."she shouted as I got on my broom and flew up to the goal.

I smirked at Blaise as he was in the middle of the field next to Draco. "START!" She shouted as she threw up the quaffle. I eyed Adrian and Draco getting the quaffle and saw Draco caught it and threw it towards me. I hit it with my leg and smirked.

Every single person would try and throw it at me but I kept hitting it back so it would not go through. It was now time for the other houses.

I sat down next to all the other ravenclaws that had tried out. The slytherins sat below us so Blaise sat in front of me which ment Draco would be too. I felt really confident about the tryouts.

"Sorry I told you I would go easy on you but I just didn't feel like it." I whispered in Blaise's ear and laughed as I pulled away.

He turned around and slapped my leg "well you are really fucking good I will give you that."

"Eh she's ok." Draco chimed in.

"Mate you did not get a single one in the hoop, try again." Blaise laughed as I did too.

He just rolled his eyes and looked back at the hufflepuff and griffiondoors playing.

It was all finished and she started with who made the Ravenclaw team. "Amber green! You made the keeper darling." he shouted and I looked up and smiled.

"Congrats." Blaise high fived me.

"Thanks." I smiled.

Draco made a chaser along with Blaise for slytherin.

She finished and I went to the locker room and put up my broom. All the Ravenclaw boys congratulated me for making it and fist bumping me as they walked past. I walked out and ran to the castle.

I walked into great hall and saw chance, Jackson, and Kingston. I shuffled over there in excitement.

"Hey so You are looking at the new keeper for ravenclaw!" I cheered as they all hugged me.

"Congrats, so happy for you, you are going to crush it this year." Jackson said as he got up and his tall body hovered over me and hugged me.

"Thanks Jackson." I smiled pulling away from our hug.

"Jackson? Why the fuck are you hugging her." a random ravenclaw came up to us.

"Why the fuck are you talking to me?" I questioned as everyone in the great hall stopped to see what was going on. Thankfully no teachers were in here.

"I thought we had a good thing going until you are all Lovey dovey with her." she crossed her arms.

"Oh babe you think that since you guys fucked once you are a couple?" I laughed and put my hand in her shoulder and everyone gasped and starred "you are not his girlfriend darling."

"But why not me? Your with this bitch!" She said.

"Don't ever call her that again. You hear me." he hovered over her and looked down at her face.

"I- sorry." she said as she ran out of the hall. I laughed and sat back down.

"Fucking hell why do people think we are together?" I said.

He laughed and everyone continued eating as there was nothing left to watch.

"Hey I am going back up to my dorm- I- I need to study." I said as a sudden wave of sadness hit me. I was really missing my mom because she would have been so proud of me.

I ran out and ran to a bathroom. Crying. I stood at the sink and put my hands on the sides. Breathing so heavily. What Is happening? I could not breathe properly. I took off my tie and threw it on the ground.

I looked over and saw Blaise standing there "are you ok?" He asked stepping towards me.

"N- no i c- can't breathe." I cried out and fell into his arms.

"Hey it's ok. Look at me? Breathe in and out. Mhm? Do it with me." he held my head and stroked my hair.

We both breathed together and I heard someone rush in. Draco. "Mate why did you run out-" he saw me in his arms on the ground.

"She- she's having a panic attack I don't know what to do. I tried the breathing thing but it's not helping." Blaise said as Draco rushed over and held me in his arms.

"Hey it's ok I know how this feels. Blaise you can go I got it." Draco said as Blaise got up.

"You- you have p- panic attacks." I questioned still not being able to breathe.

"Mhm ok now look at me we are going to just breath at the same time alright?" He held my cheeks as my tears rushed down his hands.

I took a breath as he did too. We took a few more and I started to feel relaxed. I took one final breath "thank you Draco." I said sitting up in his lap.

"Don't mention it. And when I say that I mean it." He said as I got up.

"What-"

"Just please leave." he mumbled.

"Wha-" he cut me off again.

"JUST GET OUT." he yelled which made me jump and I ran out.

What the fuck just happened?