Hostage and in love

Thoughts on the mind

She walked into the house and it was clean nobody was in there, she went into the room Roy waited for her. He had an big present on the bed he got up grabbing her softly she flinched a bit, he rubbed her eyes kissing both of them. "I'm sorry baby, I'm not used to the word no. And I'm sorry I put my hands on you I won't ever do it again I promise, I got you a gift." He picked the present up opening it , it was a nice dress and she thought and knew it was for tomorrow when she has to do her job all over again.

"Thanks." Her bead was hurting and she had to throw up and she needed to use the bathroom get makeup and cover up her face.

"Do you accept my apology?" He asked.

"Yes. I don't wanna work anymore." She said.

"Fine you can be in here with me I won't have you go out and be a hooker I didn't like you doing that anyway." He said kissing her neck rubbing on her butt, he put his hands in her mouth she moaned as he twirled his fingers in her mouth. "I'm so sorry I hit you Ma." He took his fingers out of her mouth he bent down and unbuckled her pants pulling them down. He pulled her pants all the way getting back on his knees and placed his head between her legs putting her legs on his shoulder standing up.

"Uhh god." She moaned.

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Lily/pov

I woke up feeling a heavy body on me, I looked over and it was Roy sleep, I scooted him off of me, getting going to the bathroom. I'm sober now I can tell I don't feel the whooze anymore and that's good, I don't even know what I'm doing. I miss my Nadia I know she misses me and I know she's been asking for me. I'm going to go see her today and right now let me get dressed, I turned the bathroom light on and closed the door locking it. I looked in the mirror and I could cry right now but I'm not, I have bruises all over my neck. I have bruises everywhere and god I had an nose bleed in my sleep it's these drugs they making my body act out. I grabbed a Hoodie sliding on my jeans and put on my shoes, I quietly grabbed my car keys from the table. Well it's my dad car but it's mine now since he's dead I haven't drove in weeks. I walked out the room and hurried out the apartment taking the back walking out the back where nobody can see me. I ran into a the same girl with hazel eyes, she stopped me and looked at me.

"What?" I asked.

"Your sober?" She asked me.

"Why you think I'm going out the back door, can you help me get to my car please?" I whispered in her ear, she nodded helping me out the back. "You owe me because I can get beat on by my man, Ms.Diaz." She tapped my shoulder, "Yeah I got you I just need to someone." I said. "See who your side dude." She chuckled.

"No, do you want to come?" I asked.

"Yea sure." I pointed to my car she looked at me and then I looked at her, yeah she don't know who my dad is or she probably don't know that I'm his daughter.

"Nino Diaz." I said.

"How do you know him?" She asked me.

"He's my dad, this is his car and I'm filthy rich." I unlocked the car doors getting in, she got in and I took out a stack. "Here get out of here do something this should get you an apartment on the good side of town. Or go to rehab I don't know but you said I owed you so there you go." I threw the stack of cash I gave her another stack and she took it, putting it in her jacket.

"Why did you come over this side town, people who comes to this side has nothing, Your the daughter of Nino Diaz. There's no reason you should be here."

"My parents are dead and they left everything to me I came here to get rid of the pain, I didn't know that I was going to be getting raped and force to take drugs." I didn't know that I was signing myself up to get raped by my own boyfriend and him making do crack, weed and I even stuck myself with a needle once, I am so terrible. And I will understand if Alison doesn't want to give me daughter back but I cannot stay in this any longer. I pulled off going back into town the girl with the hazel eyes starred at all the buildings I just kept driving until I pulled up to my destination.

"Is this your house I didn't think your father had such classic taste."

"No this is not my fathers house this is somebody else house." I said getting out the car walking up to the door I rang the door bell and Alison came to the door. I started itching my neck side effects of being a crack head you wipe your nose and itch to death and I fucking hate it, when I'm sober yea it bothers me a lot. "Awwn poor baby." She took me in and hugged me, did she just hug me? She has never hug me like ever she's not even nice to me.

"Why are you hugging me?" I asked.

"Because I understand why your an addict now, I used to be just like you when I first lost my parents, and I'm sorry that they are dead. And I misjudged your baby father he comes to see her everyday and he's right now. Tucking her in for bed you can-"

"Hey lily I'm hungry." The girl with the hazel eyes came out. "And who's this?" Alison asked. "I'm cadence nice to meet you." She said. "I'm Alison and I just cooked dinner not to long ago I still have some plates come in." She said I walked up the stairs going to Anadia's room Eddie was in there reading her bedtime story.

"Mommy!" Anadia shouted, she got out of bed running towards me giving me a hug I picked her up kissing her forehead. "Mommy so sorry, I haven't been here for you......Mommy.... Mommy needs to uhh get help." I said to her. "Why?" She asked me.

"Uhh mommy sick, I need to go away for a few months but I promise I will be back for you I promise." I said.

"She has to go to bed let me tal-"

"I didn't know you had an daughter." Cadence said.

"And I didn't know you knew the sexy man in the jeans." Cadence said.

"Don't talk like that in front of my daughter junkie." Eddie said, gosh why does he have to be so rude, "Can you put her to sleep while I talk to him please." I said cadence nodded going into her room Eddie pulled me into the bathroom. Closing and locking the door, I itched my neck starring at him my daughter does really look like him too.

"You look even worser what's it been 3 days since I seen you, he keeps beating you do he? Don't answer that because I know he is your the mother of my child. And I know you don't like me because of what I did and I apologize for being selfish sticking you with a baby. And I'm sorry that I raped you okay but it was-"

"Either that or your life okay I understand now Eddie, but pleaeee.......Get me help I cant keep doing this- this please help Eddie." I started crying and he held me tight, rubbing my back I couldn't stop crying because I'm such a bad mom. Why did I have to do this to myself? I don't know why I wasn't thinking I wasn't thinking about Anything.

"Ok just stop crying because Anadia was crying because she kept asking for you and I said I didn't know, I don't know what to do when people is crying so- and your not going to stop okay. I am going to make sure you eat, get you on full stomach and then I'm going to drive you to a rehab. And your going to get help okay." He continued to rub my back.

"Thank you. For watching out for her." I thanked him and I'm finna regret this very thing that I am about to do but I can't help myself. I looked up at him and kissed him, he didn't pull away either as I thought he was.

"What was that for?" He asked.

"I don't know."