I See Orange (JenLisa)

49.) Maheunahop

Title: Happier

Artist: Marshmello ft. Bastille

AUTHOR'S NOTE: TIME SKIPS!!!!

6:17 AM

Morning After

Location: Jeju Island International Airport

JENNIE'S POV

JN: Yeoboseyo?

JS: Jendeuki I swear to fucking Moses! I've been trying to call you for almost 48 hours now! What shady thing did you do this time huh?! My Men aren't answering me when I call them!

**Sigh**

JN: Relax Chu, it's over now

JS: Over? what are you talking about?!

JN: Tangelo and I.. we're.. we're done Chu.

I ended up bawling my eyes out again after saying that, I'm so hurt that I feel like I'm really about to lose my life at any given moment..

JS: Jendeuki...

JN: She doesn't love me anymore, Jisoo. I thought I still had a chance with her but she..she loves him.. and I can't.. I don't want to be selfish with her anymore, she has been through so much already and most of it was because of me, I can't do that anymore.. I might just kill her with Sadness if I continue forcing what isn't meant to be

JS: I'm very sorry Jennie..

My cousin said sympathizing with me

That's the last thing I wanted, to be felt sorry for.

I don't want to look pathetic in the eyes of people but I guess being vulnerable and the feeling of loneliness is inevitable in my situation.

I'm most likely going to stay like this for a while..

or maybe for as long as I live.

I admit, letting Tangelo go is probably the biggest mistake that I'll regret for the rest of my life but I know that it's for the best, for her and for myself as well.

JN: Don't be.. it's not your fault, it was all me

JS: So what's your plan now? are you still in Jeju?

JN: Yeah, I'm flying back to Seoul in an hour and then I'm going to head back to New York..

JS: Why don't you come home first Jennie?

JN: I have no place here in Korea anymore Chu

JS: So you're just gonna leave and disappear on us again?

JN: I can't stay here and I don't want to stay here any longer...There's just too many precious memories and I need to let it go now, it's not healthy for me if I keep holding on to Lisa, I've been holding on to her for almost a decade now, it's time to focus on myself.

I can't force her to be with me, I can't be selfish with her anymore..

I really wanted to though..

But I love her so much that I'm willing to sacrifice my own happiness just so she could be happy with him..

I already made her life complicated as it is and She deserves to be happy now, She doesn't need a pain in the ass like myself.