I See Orange (JenLisa)

46.) Maheunyeosot

Title: I Wanted You

Artist: Ina

LISA'S POV

"Why isn't she texting me back?" I whispered to myself staring at my phone for the last 40 minutes

Jennie hasn't been updating me like she said she would and I'm getting really mad

Is she really that occupied?

Maybe I should leave her alone for now, she hasn't seen her friends for 8 years, maybe they're busy catching up

But still, is it that hard to reply to any of my texts?

I exhaled sharply and massaged the bridge of my nose. I'm getting very anxious and frustrated with myself for being too attached to her again in such a short amount of time and it's driving me crazy.

I know I'm being ridiculous. I was never like this with Jung-kook and we were together longer than Jennie and I have

I'm such a Simp.

It seems like the tables have turned. Back when we were younger, She was the one who would always text and call me, asking me where I'm at, what I'm doing or who I'm with but now, I had to remind her to keep in contact with me as much as she can because I get paranoid.

I've become like my wife but I don't know to what extent is my possessiveness over her is going to take me, who knows? I might even be worse than her and the thought of it scares me because this feeling is foreign to me and I don't exactly know how I'll handle it when it gets out of control.

She's probably doing some kind of reverse psychology on me--The less I get from her, the more I'll want and crave for more, and she knows it.

That's it! that's gotta be it! otherwise I wouldn't act like a crazed lover.

The way I'm acting right now is way out of my character.

But even though I try my hardest to convince myself that she's doing some type of VooDoo shit on me, deep down I already know the reason why I'm like this--- I've finally come into terms with myself and accepted the fact that I'm still in love with Jennie.

I almost lost it this morning, I got so upset when she told me that Jackson will be coming here to Korea to visit her.

My jealousy got the best of me and I almost picked another fight with her, good thing Jennie isn't the same as she was before, she's more patient and she was compliant with my demands.

I could tell she's trying to avoid drama at all cost and I really appreciate her for that.

Jackson needs to get the fuck out of the picture.

I don't want him near my wife!

Jennie has been away from me for so long, I don't want to be separated from her anymore.

I really want to ask Jennie to break up with her boyfriend because I don't know how long I'll be able to put up with the fact that she's in a committed relationship.

I want to completely own Jennie and her boyfriend is a big hindrance that needs to be taken care of as soon as possible.

Earlier, I finally told Sana about Jennie and I being married, I also made her aware of Jennie's struggles and all the other shit that went down when we were in Jeju Island.