I haven't talked to Vinnie for 2 weeks now. And i dont think i ever will.
I'm going to a trip to Hawaii with Indi, Amelie, Charli, Dixie and Avani and i may be moving there if i like it.
I mean i know i will like it. But i just need some kind of explenation not for other but for myself cuz i know that Vinnie would never forgive me and i dont blame him. I wouldnt forgive myself either. And i hate myself for what i did to him.
The day of trip
Yesterday i got packed so when i woke up this morning i brushed my teeth and chected if I forgot something. Then when the time came i got dressed and went to the airport with the girls. Our flight was at 6 pm.
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And a white Nike hoddie on top.
When we got the the airport we sat there for 30 min until our plane came.
"Are you sure you will move there?" Charli asked "idk. Im just thinking about it rn. Im confused. I want to go live there but i dont want to at the same time. I want to leave because i cant live here and know that he is here and that i will be seeing him here often but i wont be able to hug him or talk to him or anything like that cuz he hates me. And i mean, i would hate myself too. But, i dont wanna go cuz some part of me still believes he will forgive me and we will be back together. But i know it wont happen" i said sad
"Look you shouldnt run away from your problems. I know how he feels and if he loved you and after you cheating on him his feelings shouldnt change. I've been at his place. I felt the same way he does. He thinks he can live without you but if he really loves you, he will accept you apology and give you another chance like you did to him" Dixie said
"I know i shouldnt run from all of this but i just dont wanna hurt him again" I said "You were drunk when you did that. I know it wont happened again you know it too. And he should know it. Prove him that that was a huge mistake and that you really regret it. He will forgive you. Just be truthfull to him but first be truthfull to yourself" Amelie said
