until death do us apart

//10//

Felix was ready. You both left the hotel and went to the nearby park. It was dark and a little cold. 

,,I hope Seungmin doesn't get scared if he wakes up and sees i'm gone."- Felix said and laughed.

,,Haha, me too. So, why you were crying?"

,,I wasn't, just my eyes was red, because i was tired."-he lied to you.

,,You are lying. I saw you."

,,Okay, maybe i cried a little before i fell asleep."

,,And what was the reason?"- you asked him, but he didn't want to tell you. You decided to speak because there was no time.,,I was looking for you because i want to-"Felix stoped you.

,,I know. I wanted to see you again too. And that was the reason i cried. I knew that i will never see you again because i didn't think that you felt what i felt. When you told me what you felt i realised how strong the spiritual connection between just a fan and an idol can be."-he said and these words made you think.

,,Do you believe that everyone has a soulmate?"-you really wanted something unexpected to happen, so you just asked him that.

,,And do you believe in love at first sight?"- while you both were walking he just stopped, turned to you and asked you. You turned to him too. The question surprised you and scared you a little. Actually this was unexpected. You didn't know what to say.

,,And you?"

,,After i met you, i do."- WHAT?! You couldn't believe that. What he meant? You felt a little uncomfortable and he saw that.

,,But-what you mean?"- you asked him, but he just smiled and did something that changed your life. He just kissed you. HOW?! From nowhere? You only were dreaming for this. The felling was amazing. That was your first kiss ever. He broke the kiss.

,,I fell in love with you without even realising it. If this kiss scared you or made you uncomfortable we will forget about it. But if you liked it and if you feel the same as me i will do my best to find a way to be with you."- these were genuine words. You started crying again. Felix wiped your tears with sleeve of his hoddie and hugged you. You decided to speak.

,,Look, i love you and you know it, but there is no way to be together. Neither your company nor my parents will allow it. And we've know each others for hours. You can't love or like me. Remember i'm just a fan."- you didn't want to do that but it was necessary. Yeah, it would be nice to be with him, but it wasn't possible. You just go back to reality. He looked you in the eyes and you saw how disappointed he was. You didn't want to upset him or something, but he had to know that things couldn't work out. 

,,Yes, you are just a fan..."- he bowed his head.

,,Let's forget only about the kiss."- you said.

,,What you mean?"

,,Find me. I have to go now. Bye."- you said and hugged him. He hugged you too and it was like he don't want to let you go, but he had to. You went to the taxi that was still parked in front of the hotel and took it.

When you finally returned to the hotel room it was late and you had to go to bed immediately because in a few hours you had to get up again and go back home. You didn't want this to end. What if you had to stay with Felix and be with him? Whether what you did was not a mistake? These questions were in your mind all night. You were too tired, but you couldn't fell asleep. The last thing what you said was ,,Find me.". You really want he to find you. You thought that if he started looking for you, then everything he said he felt was true. In your mind everything was a mess. But you knew that you didn't have anything from Felix now and if you want to bring back the things, you can't. Maybe only he can. Tomorrow was your flight. Tomorrow you would return to normal life...