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li's online diary entry.
the survival show definitely wasnt easy. today was the day the show was ending. the final line up was said today... but since this is for the straykids blog, im going to summarise this, in segments, for the most memorable things.
one, from the starting was when we first all met. at that time, we really just jumped to what we needed to do, which was producing and recording the songs, it was my first actual day as a member. we recorded for hellevator. an hour in, we felt comfortable with each other, we laughed and joked together. there was the bond... the bond that just tied us together.,
sadly just in the 4th episode, minho got eliminated. it wasnt that minho was bad, he just didnt have alot of experience, only having a short training period. even though i had just a few months of training more. we were all devastated, jisung and i being the most devastated, as changbin said. minho took care of all of us, he joked with us, always making sure we were fine, even when he wasn't fine himself.
well as if that wasnt very bad, it wasnt long until we saw his video message to us. that one hurt, it made everyone cry. even in his pain, he smiled for us and cheered us on, hoping that one day, maybe he'll join us up on the stage.
of course, all of us were on the brink of being eliminated too. we all had things we had to improve, me especially. my vocals werent very stable at times. and with minhos words, all of us worked even harder, for the JYP VS YG segment.
that was one of the biggest learning points. not only did i learn that my vocals needed way more stablity, i also got a lot of tips from yg, learnt from the boys singing and performance from yg.
another learning point was when we had to busk in hongdae. it really did teach us about how our energy and charisma was the biggest factor we needed. i learnt that for people to look at us, we had to give in our all, go to our limits. unfortunately, even though we had alot of energy and gave our best, felix was eliminated. felix was the first person that i got really close with, him and i always conversing in english and back to korean for both of us to improve.
felix was always there to hold me, when i was stressed or tired. he was my serotonin, the light of my life. we didnt want to let go.
no... we wouldnt have been able to smile even if we all debut, without them.
but.....
jyp decided to give both of them a chance, and called them back. we were all reunited, in the practice room, that we spent measureless hours in, messing around, joking and helping each other. it was really a day of tears, we were all reunited.
to my members. i want to take this time to thank each of you.
to chan thanks for being the big brother for all of us and putting us first everytime, caring for us and conforting us countless times. i remember there was one night before our evacuation, i was so stressed that i left the dorm crying, i really thought at that time i would be kicked out... but you came after me and told me everything was fine and that i did great. that really made me very motivated to debut with you as straykids. i love you.
to minho thanks for always teaching me the dance moves that i couldnt pick up during the classes, and for always reassuring me that i was doing good. without you, i would properly not be able to have done any of the dances, and maybe not even have the confidence to still be here. thanks for always taking care of me, always making sure i didnt overwork myself. youre one of the best people i can ever meet, the one who always stood by me when i was feeling like trash. i love u.
to changbin i know we didnt really get along with each other at first, like i remember the time you stole my bottle of water and didn't give it back till dance was over. but through the time we trained, i realised how caring, loving and amazing you are. thank you for always encouraging me during the recordings, for always entertaining me. whenever we record, you always bring up the mood, by your jokes or your little encouragements. and for that i really thank you, it always makes me feel better during times im anxious. i love you.
to hyunjin hi best friend. i remember the first night i arrived, after our first ever practice. we were with the members when you started screaming about americano because you really really wanted some and jisung said, arent you too young for that, despite being younger and yall started fighting, that made me really scared of you for some reason , but now that it has been a heck of a journey with you, i realisd how big of a sweetheart you are. you always put us first, and always tried your best so that you wouldn't pull us down and also helped us a lot. and i really appreciate you. i love u
to jisung i know at first we were really really damn awkward because i was a girl, but after awhile we got really close. if i had to pin point that exact moment i would have to say that it was that day when we had nothing going on for the day, chan was at the studio , changbin and minho went to visit their family, hyunjin and seungmin went out, and felix went to get groceries, it was just the two of us at the dorm, you asked me if i wanted to watch a movie with you, which i said yes to. we kept whispering about the movie and ended falling asleep with our feet on each other, next thing i knew we were like buddies. but i would really like to thank you for being one of the closest members to me and always entertaining me. i love you
to felix you know weirdly enough... i never really got to know you for the first 2 weeks, despite being in the same room with you. the time i really started to know you was after we said the same thing when chan brought back chicken, which was " look at all these chickens " literally vines. and then the mess of a friendship started. woah, yeah hahah. anyways i want to thank you for always gaming with me and being weird with me. i love you bro
to seungmin hey seungie, you smell really nice. but anyways, i want to thank you for always letting me hug you even though you hate it sometimes, and thanks for being there for me, for real. you are literally my best friend and i literally loaf you. lets go out more and take selcas, and then we can post them! lets go shopping and to a cafe, I'll treat!! anyways, i still remember that one time you didn't shower for 3 days so i wouldn't hug you, you better not try that again, but i love you hehe
to jeongin jeonginnie, i remember when you used to come back to seoul on Friday in your uniform and then smiling at all of us and say " guys I'm back eheh!!! lets go eat " but then you dropped out of busan school and studied in seoul. but anyways , i adore you so much and i hope you never grow up and stay my child forever. thank you for always lightening the mood by smiling and calming us down. you never fail to make me smile and i love that! i love you my child! lets go eat ok!! :)
to SKZ LETS GET THIS BREAD HAHAAHHA , LOVE YALL POOPIES
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YES IM BACK GUYS HAHAH. I FORGOT I HAD THIS BOOK UP SO OOPS. I'LL UPDATE MORE I SWEAR. ALSO IF U CANT TELL MY CHAPTERS DONT HAVE IKE A CERTAIN THEME. ITS JUST ALL THE IDEAS BOOP
