Scars

Snuffles

Sirius was crying. Fat, salty tears dripped down his tanned face leaving paths of water etched into his skin. His mother's voice shaking with rage had followed him to hogwarts simply to taunt him, mock him and push him down.

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It was near the full moon, all Remus's senses were heightened. Upstairs he heard muffled sobs. He made a quick excuse and hurried upstairs. There he saw the face of Sirius black, the face that always seems so confident, the face that is always there for him, but now the face that had tears stained across it, the face that showed how broken he really is, something no one else seemed to realise.

Remus rushed towards him, panicking. He didn't know what to do, what to say! Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck he said under his breath in rapid succession. "Sirius!"

Sirius looked up and saw the face of Remus lupin. He saw how his beautiful face was contracted with panic, he saw how his soft curls fell across his face, he saw his whiskey coloured eyes that glittered in the sun, he saw the scars that lined the werewolf's face, reminding him of the past.

Sirius went bright red as Remus hugged him tightly. He smelt of chocolate, old books and vanilla. He felt safe when he smelt this.

"Siri what happened!! Are you ok!"

These words panicked Sirius because the reason he was crying was well.... wehesortafellmadlyinlovewithRemuslupinandthenhateshimselfbecausehismothertoldhimthatbeinggaymeanthewasasinnerandwasgoingtohellandthateveryonewouldhatehim... also Remus was straight and definitely didn't like him back

"Umm nothing"

Remus rolled his eyes without a hint of annoyance and said

"I'm not dumb padfoot but If you don't want to tell me I won't force you, whenever your ready I will be happy to listen" before pulling him into another hug, full of as much love as humanly possible.

Sirius felt him fall slightly more in love with him, something he didn't know was possible, he fell into fresh sobs.

"Thank you moon moon"

Remus picked the smaller man up like a baby and carried him into bed.

"Now no more crying mr snuffles"

He picked up a book and wrapped his arms around sirius's waist before reading aloud in a low soft voice

He snuggled into his chest and Remus felt Sirius's breathing stop shaking

Sirius thought to himself " how could this be a sin, and even if it was, even if he was going to hell he didn't care"

Sirius fell asleep to goosebumps, shivers down his spine, soft words and snuggles

Remus thoughts wondered to chocolate, books, pillowes, sirius's lips, sirius's cheekbones, sirius's eyes and it was then he knew that he loved Sirius (not platonically) and you know what. He didn't care