Scars

Questions

"Oi Siri, over here!" Shouted James, earning himself a glare from Minnie.

Sirius hurried over to his friends and sat down on the cold, wooden bench. He felt like everyone's eyes were burning into his back.

He avoided his friends gaze, he already wished he was back in bed. Confusion spread across James's face when Sirius didn't immediately tuck into the spread in front of his eyes

"Not hungry mate?"

"What...?" He had zoned out for a bit "oh no" he replied with a horribly forced sense of airiness

James's eyes lit up, a wide grin spreading across his mouth "oooh pads is trying to impress a girl" he said in a sing song, teasing voice (he had completely missed the point ) some girls looked round at him, hope in their eyes

Sirius felt a small part of him fall to the floor and smash. Yeah, a girl. Cause he was totally and completely heterosexual. Him gay? Wrong bitch

"Who is her, what's her name?" Prongs said in the same annoying tone.

Even moony looked intrigued, if not slightly sad. This baffled Sirius.

Sirius's hands started shaking like mad and his breaths started to get shorter and shorter, all logical thought went out the window. He wished they would all just leave him alone and stop with the questions. It took all his will power to not start sobbing on the spot or sprint out of the hall.

"Bye gotta go do that essay for Minnie" Sirius surprised himself as to how strong his voice sounded despite how weak he felt. His steel grey eyes bet Remus"s amber ones for a split second, this was enough for butterflies to erupt in his stomach and a deep blush to graze his cheeks. His need for Remus brought tears to his eyes. He ran off and locked himself in the nearest toilet, trying to calm his rapid heart hammering against his ribs.

"Hold on, we did that essay together" James said slowly "he was trying to avoid my questions!" Turning to moony, realisation dawning on his face "stupid git" he said with a chuckle, but Remus was too wrapped up in thought to think of a snarky comment in return. Why had Sirius frozen up like that when he saw him? Why had Sirius ran out like that, it definitely wasn't over a girl, he would have boasted obnoxiously about that and 3rd of all, why did Sirius's ass look so good in those jeans?

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Tw: self harm

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Meanwhile Sirius was yet again cleaning up more of his own blood, splashing water on his face and painting on a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes, one that he knew wouldn't last long.

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