School Boys (Ferard)

Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

2/1/15

Early Sunsets Over Monroeville.

Gerard's POV

I didn't bother to wait up for Frank, he wasn't my boyfriend anymore, he was basically a friend, I didn't know how I felt about that, I was still majorly confused.

I laid my books in my locker but I kept my Sketchbook at hand, I liked having it nearby at all times, art was my coping mechanism, the one that hadn't nearly killed me. 

I looked at the picture and felt pangs of want shoot throughout me. Jesus man, I wish you were here, beside me, giving me a hug, going on about something, being mine. He wasn't someone that I just claimed. 

He was my bestfriend, he listened to me go on about pointless things, he was interested in my artwork, he encouraged me to do good, he kept me away from violence, he held me when I was scared, he was indescribable in all the right ways.

I remembered every night that one of us couldnt sleep, I remember every time one of us was hurt, I remember everything, every feeling. Yet I've come to forget what it was like, without this numb happiness.

I quickly slammed my locker and headed home. I stepped outside, the sky was grey and the air smelled like rain, and before I could leave campus it was pouring rain. I spotted Frank who was quick walking In attempt to get home quicker. I ran over to him. My hair was matted down to my face with rain, I was soaked but I didn't care.

"Hey, why don't you just come over now? My house is closer than yours so we can get out of the rain." He nodded and we quick walked in the rain. He looked adorable soaked in rain, stop it mind!

When we got home and got dried off and calmed down we made our way down to the basement where my room was. I grabbed my lyric booklet, which was nearly full with songs I'd probably never use that made up a concept album for a band that didn't exsist, but it awash a bad ass idea and I wanted to hear the songs.

"Mikey walk Frank through the chords and I'm gonna review the lyrics for myself."  Mikey nodded and him and Frank worked as I stared down at my paper. I hadn't sang in years, last night was the first time I had sang and tried to sound good. I didn't sound bad but the song itself was out of key, but that's how they belonged, they were better out of key.

"Okay we're ready," Mikey said smiling at me reassuringly, he could tell I was nervous. I gave him a smile in return and turned back around, we had an old microphone, wasn't top state but it worked fairly well and we had a tape recorder around here somewhere.

Mikey and Frank began perfectly and mentally I prepared myself for my entrance to the song. "Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favourite scenes. They're holding hands and life was perfect, just like upon the screen." I took in a breath and moved around a little bit, just walking around, standing still like that didn't feel right. 

"And the whole time while always giving, counting your face among the living .. pennies and colder fountains, elevators and half price sales, trapped in by all these mountains. Running away and hiding with you, I never though they'd get me here. Not knowing you'd change from just one bite, I fought them all off just to hold close and tight."

"But does anyone notice? But does anyone care? And if I had the guts, to put this to your head, would anything matter if your already dead??? And should I be shocked now, by the last thing you said? Before I pull this trigger, your eyes vacant and stained, but does anyone notice? But does anyone care? And if I had thw guts to our this to your head? But would anything matter If your already dead? And should I be shocked now? By the last thing you said? Before i pull this trigger.Your eyes vacant and stained, and you saying you love me, made things harder at best. And these words changing nothing as your body remains."

"There's no room in this hell! There's no room in the next!  and our memories defeat us, and all end meets the rest, but does anyone notice? But does anyone csre? And if I had the guts to put this to your head? But does anything matter if your already dead? Before I pull this trigger, your eyes vacant and stained, and you saying you love me, made things harder at best! And thesr words changing nothing, as your body remains. There's no room in this hell, there's no room in the next, and our memories defeat us, and all end meets the rest. But does anyone notice, but does anyone care? and if I had the guts, to put this to your head, but does anything matter if your already dead? But does anyone notice... there's a corpse in this bed!"

I finished strongly, I smiled, that was amazing, that was perfect, my voice did everything right, they sounded so amazing. I turned back and the shock apatent on their faces. "Holy shit."  I said. I started laughing and so did they, that was mind blowing.