Love and Hurt (Luhan)

Regret

Luhan's POV

         I run to the Seoul National Hospital. I regret to what everything that I have done to Seyoung. Now I realize that she is the one who I love. My bestfriend is the one who I love. I called a cab. I rode a cab to the hospital. On the way there’s a long traffic jam. I wait but my impatientness make me went out from the cab. I paid the driver and I run. I don’t care if I must lost my breath but please let me meet Seyoung. I don’t want to lost her.

          Finally I arrived at hospital’s door. I went to the information center. I ask the nurse where is Seyoung.

             “What is your relation with her?”

             “I’m her bestfriend”

        After that she gave me Seyoung’s room number. I run again and then I saw her parents there. I bow to them. Yes, they know me. Of course, Seyoung is my childhood friends and her parents are like my second parents. They let me see Seyoung.

         There is it. Seyoung. Sleep with some wire connect to her. I can saw a heart beat reader beside her bed. Her face full of wound. My legs grew weak. Tears stream down from my eyes. Seyoung a person who love me now sleep in peace. I sat beside her bed. I touch her cheeks lovingly. How fool I am. I let you go. Now my pay back was come.

          "Seyoung please open your eyes. I will do what you want. Just please open your eyes. I miss your smile. I miss your childish behavior. I miss everything about you. Please open your eyes. I’m begging you” once again my tears drops on top of her hand. I hold her hand tightly. It not as warm as before.

 -Fast Forward-

         Now was lunch time. I mean afternoon. I still sat beside her. With my hand still holding her. I don’t want to let it go. Suddenly the door opened by 2 person. They are Sehun and Ha Ra. We have eye contact, I can see Ha Ra glaring at me.

         “Come with me” Ha Ra said. I follow her. We then stopped at hospital garden.

       PLLAAKK. She slap me. I didn’t say anything. I know it must be about Seyoung. I know I deserve it.

        “Are you satisfied? You ruin her life” She shouted at me while the tears stream down from her eyes. I keep silent and hung my head down

        “Don’t you know how much she love you?” She said. It make me shocked

        “Seyoung love me?” I asked her back

        “Yes and you broke her heart”

        “But-“

        “Shut the hell up Lu!” She shouted while her tears still come down from her eyes

       “Read this book. You will know how fool you are” She gave me a diary book. I took it and then she walk away. She bumped her shoulders on mine. She walk while wipe her tears.

     I sat down on the bench. I open that book. It was Seyoung’s diary with her handwriting there. I read every page carefully. Until I reach a page.

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Dear Diary,

August, 5th 2013

Today is my worst day. My plan to confess my feeling to Luhan is failed and the most thing I hate of this day is because Luhan said he love Jessica. Yes Jessica, my new classmate. He also want me to help him to confess it to Jessica, and I said yes. Stupid right? But what can I do? The one that I love, don't love me back. I can't forced his feeling to like me back right? Now, I don't know what to do. My heart really really and very broken.
I regret don't said my feeling to Luhan early. Even if he doesn't like me he wouldn't ask me to help him get Jessica. Molla, I really confused now. What I can do now is crying. I don't thing I want to go to school tomorrow.