Tsukishima x reader (one shots)

Mr.loverman

Heads up mention of suicide and alcoholism
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I'm headed straight for the floor
The alcohol served it's tour
And it's headed straight for my skin
Leaving me daft and dim

Damn it I can't get up, this isn't helping anything I still feel her presence, smell her perfume

I've got this shake in my legs
Shaking the thoughts from my head
But who put these waves in the door
I crack out and I poor

Why can't I just forget her, I don't want to remember her smooth (s/c), or her (h/l)
(h/c), her voice, or her (e/c) eyes

I'm Mr loverman
And I miss my lover man
I'm Mr loverman
Oh, and I miss my lover

My daze was interrupted by a knock on my door

"Tsukki, it reeks of alcohol, please stop (y/n) wouldn't want you doing this" Yamaguchi exclaimed worrying about his friend
All I could do was look at him

"How about we go visit her"
"What will that help the answer is nothing I would appreciate if you left me alone"

The ways in which you talk to me
Havin me wishin I were gone
The ways you say my name
Have me running on and on

It should've been me after all everything was my fault

Flashback

"Tsukishima Kei get back here we aren't finished I don't know why you're mad"

"Oh really well there was an unwelcome guest in my home all over you, looking at you like a piece of meat"

"How was I suppose to know that to me, he's just my childhood friend who I haven't seen in a couple of years"

"You know people change right, and what you were wearing in front of him didn't help it's like you wanted him to pounce on you"

"Kei I love you and only you, you know that I'm yours and you're mine"

"I can't tell, just- I'll be back later"
I then proceeded to grab my coat of the wrack and place my shoes on I needed to go on a walk and clear my head, I leave but little did I know she would follow me

I'm at a cross walk it turns green letting me know I can walk forward about a minute later I hear my name being yelled

"Kei wait please don't leave me" she yelled running towards him

Everyone was told always look before crossing me messing with her emotions she wasn't in the right state of mind because of me and my jealousy she was better of without me

"(Y/n) look out"

It was too late the second she turned her head she was hit by driver who couldn't press the breaks fast enough , I immediately run to her

"Baby please don't do this to me"
"Babe I love you so much you know that right"
"I was never gonna leave you because I love you too much" she never heard my cries of desperation because she was already dead

The ambulance kept trying to revive her, they took her to the emergency room I told the guys what happened they appeared quickly to give me support

"Tsukishima (y/n)"
We all hopped up hearing her name, little did I know what was in store for me

"I am so sorry she couldn't make it with the brain damage and internal bleeding, crushed lungs there wasn't much we could do, I give my condolences sir"

With that the surgeon who claimed he did his best to keep her alive left

(back to the present)

Oh I'm cramping up
I'm cramping up
But you're cracking up
You're cracking up

I bet she laughing at me while I'm miserable after all it is my fault she died

I'm Mr lover man
And I miss my lover man
I'm Mr lover man
Oh, and I miss my lover

I'm going to take Yamaguchi advice

Time skip

I made it to her grave and put fresh (f/f) on there, those were her favorite flowers

I'm shattered now, I'm spilling out
Upon this linoleum ground
I'm reeling in my brain again
Before it can get back to you
Oh, what am I supposed to do without you

I'm crying I'm public how lame, everything leading up to here is my fault I messed up

I'm Mr lover man
And I miss my lover man
I'm Mr loverman
Oh, and I miss my lover

I turn around to leave but someone was In front of me to be particular she was in front of me

"Im so sorry I know you hate me I hate myself this should've been me"

She didn't do anything but smile and shake her head no and did a gesture that was heart even though she died because of me she still loves me

"Why"
She spoke to me and said what I least expected

"I love you kei and I'll wait for you"

She then disappeared
No, she was just in my clutch and she's gone again I can't let that happen

(time skip) trigger warning please be aware of mentions of suicide if you are uncomfortable reading I advise you skip, please

I went straight home after writing goodbyes and got into the tub filled with water and sliced until I couldn't anymore and lost conscious

(Yamaguchi pov)

"Okay everyone lets go help tsukki out, he needs us no matter how far he tries to push us away"

Author pov
With that all of the ex team members and coaches arrived at the tsukishima's residence
Yamaguchi knocked and got no answer so he figured he was probably drunk and asleep
So he warned everyone to quiet down and grabbed the spare key kei had gave him

(Yamaguchi pov)
"Tsukki buddy I know you don't want to talk right now but everyone is here to cheer you up"
I proceeded to walk upstairs and find the carpet damp coming from the bathroom I open the door and tell  someone to call for help

Time skip

The old team leaves the graveyard all except one green-haired guy

(Yamaguchi pov)
"I hope you're doing better kei and reunited with (y/n)

I left

(y/n) pov
"I hope you're doing better kei and reunited with (y/n)" yams said leaving with a sad smile
"Kei I said, I would wait on you" I pouted
"What kind of husband would I be if I kept you waiting and beside I feel much better now that I'm by your side" he smirked
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The end of this one shot I never knew it was possible to cry while writing I shocked myself but yeah let me know what kind of stuff you want and I leave this here

I haven't had any request I had just been listening to this song a lot lately so I figured why not so yeah I'm getting inspiration from real life until I get a request thanks for reading this

Last thing you should really listen to

Mr lover man by Ricky Montgomery
(I don't own the song at all)

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