intoxicated || m.p

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MATTIAS POV:
"yo no, lebron is wayyy better", alejandro argues as him, kai and i debate on the best basketball player. "whatever you say man".

i say, we were currently in science for first period. finally, it's senior year. although i don't really have any plans for college. the only thing i was mostly focused on this year was graduating & making maya see that i really love her. yea that's shitty, but i do it's true.

"yo mattia? you good", ale asks as i realize i was zoning out. "what? oh yea im good". i reply as i clear my throat. then it became silent for a second.

"aye you know um i saw maya earlier". i blurt out , kairi & ale look at me stunned. "really?? i thought she - you know", kai says referring so something she almost did in the summer.

"um yea i guess she didn't, anyways guys i gotta go ill see y'all at lunch". and with that, i left out the classroom. i didn't wanna talk about maya anymore so i left.

soon, lunch rolled around. i really didn't wanna eat lunch because the food here at passiac is terrible.

i walk out of the bathroom as i see other kids sitting at their tables already. i then walk to the lunch line as i pick up my food. i look around for kairi & ale and soon enough spot them walking to a table with 3 other girls.

as i squint my eyes to get a better look, my heart drops. their she is.

kairi and alejandro always had a better friendship with maya then we did. of course, due to my stupid actions.

i stare for at the table as i realize i was staring only at maya. she then turns to meet eyes with mine & it's like everything went in slow motion. we made calm eye contact for a minute then she looks away as if she was brought back to reality.

i sigh in defeat and walk out to the football field. which it where i eat lunch & mostly take my mind off stuff...

MAYAS POV:
AFTER SCHOOL:

"see you kai, see you ale!" i shout back as i start walking to me house with katie. lena couldn't go because she had help her mom with something.

"soo... how do you feel about mattia being back"? katie blurts, as she try's to make conversation.
i was honestly stunned by her question, katie had always & always will think me and mattia belong together. i mean at times i wanna that's true but then again, i don't.

"oh um i- i honestly don't know, it's kind of weird seeing him back in school." i reply.

"yea same, i- i just want you to be happy". katie states as i sigh in disappointment. "let's be honest, mattia is your first love & im going to tell you something my mom told me; your firsts are always the ones you run back to".

"wow", i say in my head. i never thought of that.

"yea yea whatever, let's go". i say. "ahah all im saying is you guys are meant for each other, maybe learn to give people a second chance". katie says, still arguing.

2 HOURS LATER:
i was currently laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. this is how i get rid of my thoughts. rather this or hard drinking.

i was never the type to drink but yet again, yolo.

katie had to leave for dinner & i couldn't stop thinking about what she said.
"your firsts are always the ones you run back"

'man fuck this', i say as i sit up, throw on a hoodie & walk out the door. "mom!! dad!!, ill be back, call me if you need anything". i say even though she's never home. it's always me and my dad. i grab my stake board from the porch & skate to the park.

this park had a bench. a bench where i would always go and just sit. or even come here with my friends and talk.

i was currently sitting at the bench with legs crossed, writing in a notebook.

"never thought i'd see you here again". a deep voice startles me as i turn around to see none other than, mattia. "what the fuck do you want".

"woah chill". he says taking a seat next to me. he chuckles as he see me scoot farther away from him. "i was just playing at the soccer field, y'know our favourite place"?

he was right, i used to be a soccer player. so was he. and every day after school, we would walk to this field & just talk. i soon get the courage to look in his eyes as i realize what he's doing.

"no. no you don't get to do that. you know what you're doing". i defend as he just stares at me, with an innocent smirk. "what do you mean, i just wanted to say hi".

"you've said it now go away", i shoo as he scoots closer to me. i just sit there, calmly even though i wanted to punch the shit out of him.

as we still make eye contact, i couldn't help but let my eyes flick down at his lips. he soon reaches his hand up on my cheek & caresses it with his thumb. my breath hitches & becomes heavier as he brings his face closer to mine.

he kept getting closer till he reached my ear & whispered "i know you miss me, princess. you miss the way i fuck your tight little pussy & make you cum all over me, don't you".

i almost gave in because it was true. i was so in love with this boy that i let him do anything to my body. because he knew how to make me feel so good, so well.

"ew! no fuck off mattia. i hate you!!". i yell at him as i quickly sat up & start walking back home...