How To Escape #FriendZone( Under Major Editing)

Chapter 08 #Endure

The thick silence lingers painfully around, the tension is so strong as if blocking  the chilly air to reach my lungs. Leaning at the wooden grill behind me I watched as his calm face turns serious, I straighten my back when I felt he was about to say something..

"Kung hindi mo rin naman sasabihin sa kanya. Layuan mo na ang anak ko."

Calm but penetrating, his voice broke the tension into pieces. Something called wrapped my heart so tightly it almost stopped beating, his eyes threatening. I was expecting the worse to happen, but never this worst. 

I need to explain, he must've thought of me wrong. "Pero sir-" 

"May tiwala ako sa desisyon ng anak ko." My lungs heaved, he didn't allow me to explain.   

"Hindi ako makikialam sa kanya kung gusto ka man nya pero kaibigan ka lang at may karapatan pa kong piliin ang pakikisamahan nya. At alam mo, hindi ka nagiging mabuting impluwensya sa anak ko. "I felt a stab in my chest, I felt my kness tremble in guilt.  "Alam ko lahat..." I looked at him dumbfounded, every single word squeezes my heart so hard that it leaves me desperate for air, vulnerable, helpless. I've never felt this rejection before.

His eyes are stern, cold.. piercing."..lahat ng tungkol sa inyo." He doesn't thought of me wrong after all.. It's all just right. My chest tightens, lost of words. Nothing but .

"Christopher, wala akong tiwala sayo." With those last painful words, the ball of his foot twisted towards the door and started leaving. My ears gone blank til I heard the door closed. Napaupo na lang ako sa hagdanan, shoulder slumped, head bowed down.

It took him just half a minute to annihilate the smallest hope I have been tightly holding for so long. I felt emotionally bankrupt. There was nothing left to feel but failure and rejection, nothing left to say, nothing left but the void that enveloped my mind in swirling blackness.. 

Am I to give up this easy? 
Am I to give up without trying.

I heard the creeking sound of the door, tumayo ako agad recomposing myself. I tried masking everything before turning to face the door. Just as I thought,  "Jam." I said, almost whispering. I forced a smile. Half of her body his hidden behinde the door. 

"Huy best, bakit di ka pa pumapasok? Di ka ba giniginaw dyan." She raised a brow. I just stared at her. Her pinkish bow shaped parted lips, innocent eyes, naturally straight jet black hair. Her rounded slightly wider and fuller baby face.. She looks cute in that jogging pants she's wearing and a loose Tee Shirt.  Those full cheeks that blushes when she's upset, I''ll never forget everything about you..

You'll always be my cutest feisty little cat. 

I slowly walked towards her, slowly closing the space between us. "U-uy, bakit? May problema-" I don't know if it's just my instinct, or I just can't hide it anymore..I hugged her, tightly. Even this close parang ang layo layo nya pa rin. "Can I ask you a favor?" I whispered in her ear.

I know how uncomfortable she is, she doesn't want me this close to her.. Kahit sa pagkakataon lang na to, hindi pa rin talaga nya ko binigyan ng kaunting pag-asa. "Ha, anong favor.. Best bakit ba ganyan ka ang weird-" 

"Can we stay like this for a while...silently." I pleaded. Feeling her tiny body below, inhailing her sweet cinnamon smell and closing my eyes enjoying the most comfortable place in the world..