Nash's younger sister

Chapter 52

"She's Still asleep, and she should wake up soon" I could hear the doctor telling nicole. I flinched at the door shutting, I sat up quick noticing I was in the hospital. "OMG! Your awake!!" Nicole yelled. "What h-happend?" I ask looking around the plain room. "You, passed out, and they got your results back!" She said excitedly. "I will read her results when she's awa-, OH! Ms.grier your awake!" The doctor said walking over too me. I shook my head and put my legs over the side of the bed. "Well we got your results back..." The doctor trailed off. I sighed and signaled him too keep going. "....Ms.grier, you..you have cancer, an-" "SHE WHAT!" Nicole yelled. I wasn't suprised at all, from how I've been feeling, I wouldn't be surprised if I was dying tomorrow. "FINISH!" Nicole demanded. "Ms.grier you know you where pregnant right?" I went wide eyed and said "noooo! I cannot loose this baby!" At this point I was in tears. "I'm so sorry Ms.grier" the sympathetic doctor said. "Your realesed but, starting next week you have physical therapy too help possibly cure it." The doctor explained. I got up and changed and left. I sat in Nicole's car blank faced, all my tears where gone, I had none left, I had no emotions, and nothing too say. We pulled up at Nicole's and went inside. I sat down and stared at my feet. "I-i I'm think you should...I'm facetime everyone, their texting In the group chat, you should tell them the news.." Nicole said holding in her tears. I sat back and nodded with a blank face. She pulled out her phone and facetimed on cams laptop which he had hooked up too the hotel TV. He awnsered and everyone starting asking where I was. She turned her phone towards me and I continued too look forward. "MADDIE! WTF IS GOING ON!" Shane yelled. I looked at the screen and everyone's expressions changed. "Maddie, what happen,what's going on?!" Everyone said. I looked back and Nicole started explaining. "W-we um took her too the doctors four days ago, and they took some tests. This morning, we went out too eat and Maddilyn passed out, the ambulance took her too the hospital and we got the results back why we were there, about 2 hours she was there she woke up, the doctor then told us the results" Nicole said pointing the camera so everyone could see her face and me. "What's wrong? Is she sick?" Cameron said with tears in his eyes. "No, a-actually , she um." Nicole said with tears falling from her eyes. "She, is diagnosed with, c-cancer" Nicole said while I just stared blankly at the wall. I have no emotions. The cancer thing didn't bother me, what bothered me was, I lost the child I have been waiting for, I loved he or she so much, and they weren't even born yet. Everyone looked at me waiting for me too say something. "Also.." Nicole said trying too hold in her tears. By now everyone was crying or either trying not too. "She s-she um, l-list her b-babie" Nicole said putting her head in her arm crying, I stared forward and it hit me, the emotions, tears started falling from my eyes, and I just stared forward, everything was quiet, I turned towards the camera and said "I'm so sorry Matthew" I said looking at all of them, there're all speechless. "Maddie, don't even say that it's not your fault! I should be saying this! I know your gonna beat cancers butt!" Matt said unsure. I looked at them and said "at this point, if I die from cancer, I couldn't give a fuck, I would fight if I had a reason too, but because of cancer, it...took that reason away, now I wanna go see my beautiful and or handsome daughter or son" I said more serious and more truthful then I'll ever be. They all stopped crying and just stared at me. Nicole sat up and looked at me. "Mad-" "I'll be down their too get the rest of my stuff then I'll come back here too go too phisical therapy." I said with a blank face. With that I got up and grabbed my laptop and bought two plane tickets for Nicole and I too go down and get my stuff. "I bought our tickets, we leave tomorrow and or Monday, and fly back Tuesday, we have too stay the night." I told Nicole who was looking at me with sympathy. "Okay, but maddilyn, your gonna do this, I don't care if I have too give you my heart, your gonna make it!" Nicole said pulling me into a hug. I stood their and wrapped my arms around her and said "if I do, I do, if I don't, then oh well." I said . She sighed knowing no too argue. "Get some sleep, are flight is early I see" she said point too the screen. I nodded and layed down and fell asleep.
-the next morning-
I woke up and got up Nicole we got dressed and headed too the airport. "Are we gonna see everyone?" She asked me. "Yeah, but I'm just gonna get my stuff and leave" I said sitting down in my seat on the plane.
-after plane-
We got off and a taxi took us too the hotel. I go out and sighed, walking too the lobby and up the elevator with Nicole. I walked too the door and sighed with no expression, Nicole opened the door and walked in slowly, me following behind her. She walked and half smiled at everyone. I walked slowly after her and closed the door, not wanting too go through the hallway, when they see me, they will judge, I've lost a lot of weight, I just look like a big mess, that makeup can't fix. I walked slowly, looking at my feet, I sighed and walked into the room and grabbed my bag putting my clothes in it, I could feel everyone staring stright through me, I felt so insecure, I put all my clothes in my bag and pulled out Cameron's Adidas soccer pants. I stood up and looked up at everyone, they all looked back at me, I walked over too cam and handed them too him "sorry, I never gave them back" I said turning back around. Cam grabbed my wrist and pulled me back towards him. "Maddilyn, we all need too talk, together." He said. I looked at Nicole and she nodded while trying too hold in her tears. "What do we need too talk about?"I asked looking at my feet. "I'm so sorry about it all, you don't deserve this, none of it." I looked up too see matt saying this. "And I'm sorry about your cancer and....your..baby" kian said . A tear slipped and I put a hand on my stomach. "My baby" I whispered too myself. "Maddilyn, are you eating?" Taylor asked standing up and walking towards me. "The cancer...I'm stressed her out and.." Nicole said wanting me too finish the sentence. "....and I have an eating disorder" I said walking over and grabbing my bag. I looked up and locked my eye on matthew. "I'm so sorry matthew, I would do anything too bring are baby back, we were both so excited too have this child, and my cancer...ruined it, I'm sorry, we have been through a lot together, and I've been through even more with all of you, I won't forget that, like I told Nicole, if I survive, then I survive, if I don't, then oh well, everything happens for a reason and I don't want you all to be upset over me, are baby is in a much better place and hopefully I will meet him soon enough, just know each one of you mean the whole world too me an I love you guys, I will always love you guys." I said with a blank expression. They all stared at me with tears. "Don't cry, that's the last thing I need" I said looking up wiping my eyes. I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and I looked too see....matthew holding me as tight as he could. I hugged back, he pulled away and looked me in the face saying "your gonna do this! No doubt in my mind, we could always have kids in the future, your a fighter, after this, you'll be able too kick everyone's ass." Matt said looking me in the eyes. A tear slipped at he thought of are baby, gone. He wiped it away and leaned in and kissed me, it felt, right. I kissed back and he pulled away, he smiled and I hugged him. "Your gonna FaceTime me eveyday until I can come and see you!" Matthew said pointing a finger in my face. I nodded and kissed him again, that's when taylor came up and said "my turn, move Bitch ass!" He said while pushing matthew out the way jokingly. I smiled and looked up at taylor. "Okay, is your technically my sister, since your my sister, and I'm stronger then everyone, that means your gonna beat cancer and use your Caniff muscles and beat it's ass, we know you can do it, your gonna do it, I promise you I'll do whatever it takes." Taylor said kissing my forehead and I pulled him into a tight hug. "Taylor caniff, I love you, don't forget it" I said pulling away. He sent me a weak smile and nodded. Everyone did technically the same thing, until it came too cam. I looked down, I couldn't look at him. He lifted my chin up and tears fell when I met eye contact. "Those tears"he said wiping them away "those are tears of happiness, happiness cause your gonna beat cancers butt, there's not a doubt in my mind, I know you, I know more about you then you do yourself, are relationship, it's stronger then taylor" he said laughing. "And your gonna use all your power and strength too fight cancers butt, we have known each other forever, goshhhh since you were a littler tird! He said Putting his hands on his hips. I smiled and nodded. "And with that said, YOUR GONNA WIN THIS BATTLE!! But you still have too facetime us all on the tv and shizz!" He said . I smiled and pulled him into s big hug. "I love you, Cameron" I said pulling away. " when do you leave? He asked. "Tomorrow morning" I said looking out the window. "Oh do you guys have a room?" He asked. "We where about too do that actually." Nicole said looking at me. "We'll just stay here!" Cam said smiling at me. "No, I can't, I don't sleep I'm awake all night, and yall have an event tomorrow is said picking up my bag and dragging it over too nicole. "Yeah, we'll get are own room" nicole said waving at them. I looked down and sighed. " I love you" I mumbled under my breath and walking out of the hotel room.
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Deep chapter. Only cause I'm deep in my thoughts right now. Goodnight guys😴💜