The Fallen

Fallen 6: ENVY

I had a twin brother. He was a very fine man. Kind, humble, loving, patient, generous, he was perfect. I was his absolute opposite. He embodied light and perfection. I had failure and disappointment. 

"Oh my! Hyun succeeded? Good job son! You never fail to amaze me. Come to the kitchen. I made your favorite." Mom cheered. Hyuk succeeded for the millionth time and made our family proud. I sighed and followed to the kitchen. I hope she remembered me and made something I like too. 

I sat down in my chair and looked around the table, searching for something to eat. Some of my brother's favorites are foods I am allergic to. There were no foods for me except for bread. I sighed and grabbed a bread and started to eat. They were happily chatting and praising my brother. They don't even waste a minute to ask me how my day went.

I looked up to see them looking at me. 

"What?" I asked them. 

"Did you ever worked hard for this exam? Getting only second place. What a shame. Why can't you be like your brother? He gave this family a very good reputation while you bring disgrace!" Father said. 

There it is. Comparison. How I hate that. I wanted to let them know how I feel. But I just can't. I'd feel guilty.

"My apologies for failing you again, mother, father." I stood up and bowed. I am hurting. I am their child too but they only care for one.  I just wanted to be loved, feel affection, being cared about, and being praised even just once but I never did. I never will.

I left the kitchen and went to my room. My heart is filled with envy, hatred, and pain. I want all of these to disappear but I can't. Hyuk was the light force of the family. I was the opposite. I sat on my bed, looking at the stuffed toy my parents gave me for my 8th birthday. They were forced to give it to me because Hyuk pleaded with them. I only got this stuffed toy and he had a whole party with his friends and our relatives.

I heard my door open so I hurriedly hid the stuffed toy and looked at the person who entered my room. It was Hyuk.

"You know, they'll never love you, right? They only see me. You're a piece of bad luck. You'll never be someone as better as me. Go die." he stated with spite.

"I can be better than you. I just don't want to exert effort just for those things." I denied it.

I knew from the very start that my twin hates me to the point of wanting me to die. I saw him hiding something behind his back. I was about to turn around when he raised his hand and swung it to me. His hand held a knife! I can't believe my own twin would be the one to kill me. I was better than him in fighting and he knew if he fought with me, he'll never win. He looked at me and smirked.

"I know you're a better fighter than me. But I'm wiser than you." he raised his hand and I was backing away thinking that he'll try to stab me again. But to my surprise, he stabbed himself and shouted for help. He threw the knife at me and I caught it just in time my door swung open and then appeared the worried faces of our parents.

"TAEHYUNG WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO?! HOW COULD YOU HURT YOUR BROTHER?!" my father shouted and punched me in the face. I can't even fight back because of shock.

"Father, mother, I just went to his room to convince him to eat dinner but then he stabbed me!" How could he lie so smoothly?

"No! Father, mother, Believe me, this time. He stabbed himself. He wanted to stab me first but he can't so he stabbed himself and asked for your help. Please believe me. Please!" I pleaded but only received a hard slap from my mother.

"How can you blame your brother for that? You envied him! He had no reason to stab you. You're saying your brother is crazy?!" mother was mad. Why can't they believe me? 

I cried so hard while my mother is still swinging her fists at me to which I cannot avoid. My father called for guards and ordered them to drag me to the council room. I can't stop crying.

My father explained what happened to the council using Hyuk's story and suggested that I should be banished. This time, my sobs slowly stopped and watched as the council announces my banishment.

"By the power vested in me, Kim Taehyung, the fallen angel of envy, with the crime you committed against your own blood, you are now banished from this realm and shall never set foot here ever again." the council announced and left the room. 

I looked at the people who are supposed to be my parents with no love, no guilt but rather gave them a gaze full of anger, pain, and hatred. 

"How can you only believe one son? You have two. Did you ever think about me? He was always the favored one. On our birthdays, he had his name hanged each year to celebrate his birth while I was locked in my room, forgotten, with only a piece of bread and a glass of water to consume for my birthday, talking to myself, blaming myself for being born and not being able to satisfy your greed for power. And you call yourselves great parents? Shameless." I told them, watched my mother cry. But I care for none of those now. They are now strangers to me. 

I looked at them one last time and spread my wings, once white was now black. They gasped as they had never seen a fallen angel's wings before. I flew away from them, and into the realm of darkness. I stopped by a huge mansion to rest for I was flying for quite some time now. I entered the mansion and looked around. Seems like no one lives here but it has been well taken care of. As I reached the lobby, there were five men sitting on the couch facing me and they looked like they were waiting for someone. 

"Hi. My name is Kim Namjoon, the fallen angel of wrath." the man with glasses and dimples said. 

"I'm Kim Seokjin, the fallen angel of gluttony. I make really good food so come to me if you're hungry." the man with wide shoulders said. Food? I can finally eat good food? I smiled at him and nodded.

"The name's Min Yoongi, the fallen angel of sloth. I'm older than you so call me hyung." the man pale as white introduced himself while slowly leaning his back against the couch and closed his eyes.

"Hi, there! I am Jung Hoseok, the fallen angel of greed and I am your hope!" the man with a big smile said.

"My name is Park Jimin, the fallen angel of lust, and no, I don't like guys." the smallest man said and smiled. His eyes disappeared.

"I am Kim Taehyung, the fallen angel of envy." I introduced myself.

"Welcome home, brother!" they chorused and smiled.

Here, I found love, appreciation, affection, and care. They are now my brothers, and I will protect them with all I've got.