Tom x Marcy

It all comes out [Chapter 5]

The day came by quicker than I was anticipating and I had to gather up the courage to say the words I needed in time, in order and not to stumble on any of the words. It was easier said than ever done before. But i definitely wasn't going to back out now,i'm obviously no pussy. I got dressed in still fairly casual clothing, here now I wasn't going to go in a full on tuxedo and shit. That's just cringe, so after that I put on a black beanie just because my hair wasn't really looking good or doing its best. It was brushed but it was just doing its own thing and so i let it do its thing

I texted her a bunch before I had to leave and she seemed in a good mood, which was good. I told her I wanted to talk about something important to her face to face. And to that she agreed without really questioning why which relieved me, as i didn't think what to say if that question did come up in the conversation. I sat with my legs crossed patiently while scrolling through all the funny and cursed pictures on my Instagram feed. By the time i realized what time it was i realized i should've left my house 5 minutes ago and if i didn't zoom out of my room and house at that instant i would totally miss the bus and leave Marcy waiting for another while

After running for a while I made it to the bus stop, it was dribbling and I didn't see that as a good sign. On the bus I just looked out the window at all of my surroundings moving quickly past me. I was starting to think of the what if questions, maybe she doesn't feel the same way then what? Will we still stay friends? It all confused me, these emotions were not new but i just forgot that feeling a certain way for someone came with all these side effects. I stopped focusing on my thoughts to focus on music

My heart was pounding inside of my chest and I was pretty anxious. It isn't everyday that you would do this type of thing to anyone, and I'm a pretty chill and cool guy. I don't normally get worked up like this ya know. Just not an occurrence that would happen. I made it to my stop and instantly after stepping down both the bus steps and looking up I saw Marcy. She looked just as pretty as last time I saw her, but i dos suppose people don't change their looks in almost a week. She also saw me and brightly smiled while steadily walking towards me. I moved my hand as a gesture of a small wave and smiled. When we finally reached each other she just started talking about whatever, very classical of her. She went on about a lot of things and i continued up the conversation

It was just going normal but all the feelings i was feeling were still there, i know soon enough i'll have to interrupt the conversation and start a new one about my feelings towards her. Nerve Racking indeed, but it was 6pm and i wanted to just let it all out. Previously I had bought us monsters, I bought myself the white and Marcy the pink. 'Hey Marcy, you know how i wanted to talk to you face to face about something' i said, regretting everything and anything. I couldn't even look her in the eyes, I was staring at trees, bushes, cars or anything really. But after being silent for at least a second I looked at her right in the eyes. She was looking back hugely confused. I placed my hand lightly on hers since it was sitting there on the sit part of the bench in front of her. I instantly saw her facial expression even more confused but just to have it over and done with i started talking again,

'Your cool person Marcy, i really enjoy your company and you make me smile a lot. You might be this tiny little gremlin but I like you. As a friend, probably more'

At this point I could see her face bright red, definitely shocked by the words that just came out of my mouth but I knew my cheeks were incredibly warm and red too. I went on because every word I said the more all the anxiety went away. Like the weight was leaving my shoulders and i was free

'You certainly don't have to like me back but i just thought i'd tell you' I ended it smiling. I couldn't tell what her facial expression meant. She looked absolutely flabbergasted and I really didn't think she would return the feelings.

And I was half right, the words she said next half disappointed me and made me happy...