just a bit of affection (ft. kth)

40. First Time Everytime.

Jia POV...
That lady whatever her name is, was with taehyung right now. Why is it that their mv has to involve her clinging onto him.

They started their shooting and trust me I was paranoid. They look so depressed in the mv. It's actually scaring.

They are awesome actors. From actors I remember hearing taehyung acted in a drama right. I smirk came on my face, I'll be watching it.

After a long hectic day they finally finished a bit of their shoot and called it day. As they bid farewell and were leaving, I leave as well with them.

"aren't you angry on taehyung for being next to her." jimin ask.

"I trust him" I say with a smile and walk holding his hand.

TAEHYUNG POV...
No one could match the proud feeling in me. She is just awesome.

Wait. I still haven't told her about me and joo yeong. Should I te-

"taehyung! Lets go eat" she called me. I love it when she calls my name. I guess I have a name kink or something.

We went to a near by Mc Donald's. I was wearing a cap, hoodie and mask so no one recognises.

She ordered the FOOD, so no one comes near me, After a while of eating. We realised the television was playing the show, the show I had shot with joo yeong.

Suddenly I started getting texts and calls from my hyings, I decided to call them so I excused myself to the washroom.

Jia POV...
I was watching the show taehyung and joo yeong shot. I mean I loved how handsome he looked on the television. I always forget his face, so it's always amusing for me to look at how handsome he is.

He left to make a call. I was admiring him when the question caught my attention.

"we have got to know you were in the same batch?" the host asked.

"yes, we did" joo yeong responded.

why is the host asking such question, the boys are seriously so uncomfortable.

"have you ever dated?" the host ask.

I scoffed and continued EATING being so annoyed. How is the host invading their privacy.

"yes, we did until we broke up for a unusual reason" I froze, but he told me he never liked her, they never dated.

"she is kidding."taehyung immediately responded.

" what are you saying we almost got married" I was shocked at her words, I never hid a thing from him and told him everything with atmost honesty and he lied about everything from the beginning, I saw taehyung enter the dinning area in rush and In fear.

In the background the television spoke something but I didnt care. I just looked at taehyung who was holding his phone in one hand and panting, still looking at me.

I immediately got up held my bag and walked to the cashier to pay him. Taehyung was going to say something when I grabbed him by wrist and pulled him towards the car and forced him to sit in the car.

I drove. I drove him to the edge of the han River. He was quite throughout the ride. I got out and walked towards his side and  opened the door.

"I don't want missunderstandings but for that explain and let me understand" this is what I said and he looked at me.

"tell me everything honestly. Even about why you lied and why you didn't get married." I demanded.

TAEHYUNG POV...
Hyungs called me to tell the parts never got edited and it is airing as it is. But before I could react she saw everything. I thought she would leave until she held my wrist and drove me to a quite place.

And said
" I don't want any useless missunderstandings but for that explain and let me understand"

"tell me everything honestly. Even about why you lied and why you didn't get married." she demanded.

I immediately opened my mouth, because she gave me a chance and it is more than I expected. "I was scared you won't like it."

She smiled and looked here and there "I will be more hurt if you lie, always tell me the truth. I trust you."

I looked at her eyes. "we didn't get married-"

"the whole surname thing?" she ask.

"well, that was a cover up. She was actually...... Well I found out that She dated me to be the wife of the inheritor of the royal family. I can't marry her if she was using me."

She arches her eyebrows. "do you still have feelings for her?" she ask.

I couldn't answer, she said not to lie but I can't say yes either.

"well I guess I got my answer." she suddenly says.

"you still have lingering feeling towards her." she said with a smile.

"jia....." I weakly say.

"it's okay, it's life anyway.......I think we should"

"break up?" I weakly ask.

She smiles "no, let's give each other a time. Take a little time and realise your feelings, but don't take long I don't like waiting." she says.

I just weakly smile.

"do you love me?" I ask.

"you are the only guy I ever liked. I even love it when I get amused seeing youe face because it is the first time for me everytime I look at it" she says with a bright smile.

"I love you a lot too" I say.

"that's attraction. You need to sort your feelings and classify it because I cant do it for you. You are the only one who feels it." she says and I realised She is just so mature.

"I am sorry." I said with my head lowered down.

She lifts my face and looks at it. She immediately leans and gives me a soft kiss and gets back quickly.

"I am so sorry i really wanted to do that." she says while rubbing her hair.

I just smile and giggle. She is understanding and never makes a scene. I love her so much. I do not have lingering feelings for my ex. Y/n is my present and will be my future. I cannot have a past. I should cherish what I got now.

"I sorted the feelings" she looked at me with wide eyes hoping for an answer. "I choose you and will always"

I immediately pull her on my lap and kiss her. Completing the kiss we were supposed to do on the rooftop.

Swallowing the other. Jia responded as well, Sitting over me and kissing while her hands close the door, My hands trail to her shirt automatically. She didn't stop me, I threw it behind and caress her back. I pull the lever making the seat lean back.

🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞🔞
She immediately falls on me and lifts up, sliding her hair to a side. Tips of hair Fell on me covering a side of her face she looked at me and went ahead kissing me. Her small shoulder were making my fingers slide on it until they reached her waist.

Her blue tinted hair shone brighter in the night light. My hands went to the hooks of her bra and I could not open it because of the cramped space, I think I tore the hook and threw it and that's when I realise. I suppose I took her innocence.

Sucking on her neck, making blue red marks and kissing her back while caressing those marks with a thumb.

Did I mark her mine? Yes, I did. But it's no time thinking because we got a lot of work to do.

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I. Cannot. Write. A. Smurt.
I apologise for it. But it is impossible for me.

I actually fear intimacy and sexual interaction. Before I get into a panic attack I should stop.

Please forgive me for it. Its very hard for me.

Thank you...
XOXO.

Thank you for reading this book. This book hasn't ended here.

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Edited - correction made as of 20 June 2022.