✿Seasons [Sugawara Koushi x Reader] (DISCONTINUED)✿

𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝟮

(as always the video does not belong to me, credits to tsxukei and you don't have to listen to this if yo u don't want to. )

Link of the video:
https://youtu.be/RJmn89W6dAg

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°Playlist°
Pink Sweat$ - at my worst (slowed+reverb)

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Warning⚠️- Mentions of Phobia and medicine are in this chapter, I recommend you skip if this triggers you.

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Unexpectedly, we found our soulmate on this very day. Sugawara asked if we could meet up and get to know each other know sometime, which is probably like a date, and I agreed. We made plans for our meet up and once evening took its place, we separated and went home.

I entered my apartment, took off my shoes and put it on the racket. I switched on the lights and suddenly a black furry animal ran towards me and circled itself around my legs. My cat, (c/n). I gently pat his head and put my stuff on the couch. The house was silent but (c/n) is enough to keep me company.

I quickly took a hot bath and changed clothes and made myself some dinner. I put some food on (c/n)'s bowl and she ate it all up.

I was about to go to sleep until the street had a power shortage. I panicked as I try to find my phone or any source of light that will brighten the room. The room was dark and silent, cricket sounds are the only ones that can be heard as my breath hitched.

My phobia was kicking in.

I ruffled through my drawers once again but feeling weak and about to faint, I gave up and went to the window where there's a faint light shining through. I covered myself with a blanket as (c/n) claimed in front of me, biting onto a small pillow for me to cuddle while we wait for the lights to turn back on. My breathing slowed down as I stroke (c/n)'s fur with my hand while staring at the stars.

Having Nyctophobia is hard for me, even if you're living alone. Nyctophobia is a phobia where you fear of the dark. I know being scared of the dark can be handled easily but it is really troublesome for me because of the phobia. I would panic, be confused or disoriented, rapidly breathing and then faint. (c/n) is my comfort animal. The psychiatrist I accompanied these few days, recommended me to have a pet incase of any casualties, of course with pills and medicine incase of if something happened to me. Whenever something like this happens, (c/n) will do its task to calm me down.

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Writing chapters like these really confuses me. Also if your wondering about Nyctophobia:

-Nyctophobia is an extreme fear of night or darkness that can cause intense symptoms of anxiety and depression. A fear becomes a phobia when it's excessive, irrational, or impacts your day-to-day life.

I haven't experienced on going to a psychiatrist yet so I'm sorry if it's a little bit off or confusing.

I only researched about it =>=