Red Lights || Destiel stripper/brothel AU

Chapter Twelve - I Bet My Life

Cas (POV)

"No no no no no no no no no no no no! This can't be happening. This can't be happening!" I say over and over again as Anna comes into my room.

"Cas, are you alright?" She asks, sitting beside me on my bed.

"Gabriel." I say quietly, rocking back and forth and i feel Anna stffen beside me.

"What did you just say?" She said, leaning in to hear me better.

"Gabey. He saw me. He saw me singing and dancing and dressed like this. He saw me, for the first time in three years." I choke out, tears springing to my eyes.

"Are you sure it was him and not someone that looked like him?" Anna asked, hope springing to her voice but i shook my head and her shoulders dropped. "Shit."

"What am I going to do A? He's going to bring father here, and Michael! Probably Zandriel too!" I cry putting my face in my hands in defeat, sobbing loudly.

"Look, just get some sleep okay? There's nothing we can do about it tonight. Let's deal with this tomorrow." I nod my head reluctantly and curl up into a ball on my bed, worried about what was going to happen tomorrow.

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D- are we meeting today?

Dean text me at 3:00pm the next day. I hadn't gone to school and had just stayed in bed all day, waiting for my family to come to me and judge me. I knew exactly what dad would say; look what you've turned into. You never should have left.

Well screw you dad, I was happy where I was and I wouldn't change it for the world. I sighed and look down at my phone, typing out a reply.

C- something came up

It was blunt and vacant but it was too the point. I didn't have the heart to write him a full on paragraph about what had happened the night before.

D- seriously? You wanted to sort this out Angel and now you're ditching me?

C- my family found out about me Dean, they found out about me being a stripper. I can't leave in case they come by and cause something

D- oh, oh god I'm so sorry I didn't realise.

C- it's okay, I'll talk to you later okay?

D- okay. Good luck xxx

I looked at the three kisses he put at the end of the text and breathed an air of relief, well at least he wasn't angry at me anymore, that's one problem down, only 99 problems left. I got 99 problems but ma bitch ain't one. 

I walk towards this floors bathroom and shut the door, locking it closed and go stand in front of the mirror. Do you ever get the feeling that when you look at yourself too long in the mirror and suddenly it feels like it's not even you anymore? Like you are looking out of the eyes of a completely different person? 

That is exactly how i felt right now, like i shouldn't be the person standing in the mirror in front of me. I shouldn't be this gaunt and thin. Sure i was muscular but that came with the job. I meant thin as in i looked ill, like i hadn't eaten for days, or slept for days in that matter. 

I soaked a flannel in cold water and wiped my hot and sticky face with in, trying to wipe away all traces of my ill look but the problem was that it wouldn't go away. I felt like i would just keep getting thinner and more gaunt with every passing second i spent living my life until finally i would shrivel away and die. 

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it was 4:09pm when i heard commotion downstairs and i instantly got up out of bed and sprinted down the steps and into the lit club where i found Anna shouting at the bouncer.