lost | kevin moon

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-You are a shame to our family!

-Why?

-You dare to talk back to me?!

-I raised you and made you who you are.

-How dare you touch me?

-I just touched your shoulder and told you to not make me angry becuase you were offending me!

-Everything I wear and seem to think or do you find it wrong.

-I always was a good kid and did what I was told.

-I never put shame on you!

-You don't understand do you?!

-You shouldn't even think to touch me and not put a hand on me!

-I am sorry.What I did was wrong but I couldn't stand the offensive words you were saying.

-You think that what you do and think it's always right and you never apologize even if you are wrong.

-Why mom? Why don't you understand?

-I don't care about what you do outside.You always have been a good kid.I don't care becuase you have that for yourself and I have a husband but what about you?Who would take you as a wife?!

-Why would you say that?!

-You are not normal.You have anger issues.Who would want a person like you? Noone.

-Who knows maybe tomorrow you would kill me.

-MOM! I am trying to change! Why can't you see that?!

-How can you say that I would kill you?!

-Tell me if you need to go to a doctor.Maybe some pills would be good.

-Is this really what you think of me?

-I am trying my best to be a better person.Psychological problems are not easy to deal with and I am all by myself. I need time.How can you say that I am not normal?

-Then what are you?

-All the things that you did for me don't fucking matter with this gesture you have done now.

-You are not human. You are an animal!

Well what can I do? She doesn't understand and think that low of me.

What should I expect from others when my own mother doesn't understand?

Something broke inside me.

Why do I feel so hopless?