lost | kevin moon

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Where is the woman that told that told me that she would be by my side whatever I did?

Mom.

I know that she loves me but she doesn't know how I am feeling right now and doesn't even try to understand.

I don't blame you mom.

You should be in my place to feel this empty.

I sighed and went out for a walk to free my head from all this.

A gentle rain started.

Well it fits my mood really well.

I was walking head empty without any destination.

Why should things go like this?

I went to the park and didn't care about the rain.

I was wet from head to toe but I sat on a wood.

The nature was really relaxing.

For a moment it made me forget everything.

But too bad it didn't last long.

Tears started falling and I couldn't stop them.

How did my life end up like this?

Why can't I have a peaceful day?

It was shocking for me that some people knew how to deal with their emotions well and lived a stress free life.

I envied them. I wanted to be just like them but why couldn't I?

I am a weak person.

I let my emotions control me.

Thunders were loud but I was feeling numb.

-Hey Kevin! Don't forget to come  for dinner!

I heared a boy yell.

-알았어! Okay! - he said back as they walked away from him.

I couldn't really see their faces becuase their umbrellas but also my vision was blurry from all the rain.

I caught a leaf and was playing with it in my hands when I felt the rain stopping.

I raised my head up to see a boy looking at me with worry.

-Are you okay?Why are you staying outside in this rain?-he asked softly.

I studied his face.

He was handsome.

Too bad I am like this.

-I just came to get some air.Thank you for worrying.-I said sighing.

-Well if you want to me to call someone I can he-

-No.Thank you.- I interrupted him.

I got up and was about to leave when I felt a hand on my wrist.

- I am sorry if I was too nosy.If you want maybe you can stay in my coffeeshop for a while.It is warm and I can give you some coffee.And I am the best at making coffee so you should try it.

-Only if you want.But I don't want you to stand on the rain like this.You will catch a cold.-he said softly.

I saw his eyes and he was sincere on what he said.

-Okay but just a little bit until the rain stops.-I said.

-Okay then.-he said while bringing the umbrella in the middle of us.

I took my cellphone and we started walking.

He really gave a nice vibe.

Rain was becoming more intense and he pulled me more towards himself so I wouldn't get wet.

I felt flustered.

-We arrive for a little bit.I am sorry if I am a little more closer to you.I don't want you to get wet.-he said smiling a little.

-What is your name?-he said breaking the silence.

-Oh.I am y/n.-I said quietly but he heard me.

We seemed to stop and he turned at me.

-Nice to meet you y/n.I am Kevin.-he said eye smiling.