Nicki Minaj, My Mentor: The Sequel

Funeral Day

Nicki Pokes Her Head In My Door. "Ready?"

I Sigh Sitting On My Bed While Looking Down At My Hands. "Not Really."

She Sits Next To Me And Puts Her Arm Around Me. "She's In A Better Place."

Tears Start To Fill The Rim Of My Eyes. "Yeah, I Know."

She Gives Me One Last Squeeze Before Standing Up. "I'll Be Downstairs With Everyone Else Waiting."

I Nod My Head And She Leaves.

After A Couple Of Minutes Of Thinking, I Take One Last Look At Myself In The Full Size Mirror.

I Then Walk Downstairs To Where Everyone Else Was. After Exchanging A Few Words With Everyone, I Snake My Arm Around Von's Shoulders While He Snakes His Arm Around My Waist. We All Then Walk Out Of The Door, Getting Into The Cars; Heading To The Funeral..... My Mom's Funeral.

(During Funeral.)

I Was Sitting Between Nicki And Wayne When The Pastor Called Me Up To Say A Few Words About My Mom. Nicki Rubbed My Hand Giving Me A Few Words Of Encouragement.

I Slowly Stand Up Walking Infront Of The Church. Before I Speak I Glance Up At Everyone That Was Sitting In The Church. It Was Pretty Full, Every Pew Of The Church Was Full.

I Look Ahead Seeing All Of Young Money Sitting Waiting Patiently. Mark Was Sitting Next To Keisha. My Driver James Was Next To Theo. And Jalen Sat By Drake, Everyone Was Here. Nicki Looks At Me Mouthing The Words "You Got It Barb" .

I Clear My Throat Before Speaking. I Could Already Feel The Tears Coming. "My Mom....Was A Great Mom." I Say Glancing At My Mom's Closed Casket, And Then Back At The Crowd. "She's Always Been There For Von And I When We've Needed Her, Even If She Was Busy Herself. And I Know She Would've Done The Same For Xavier." I Look Over At Xavier Who Was Sitting In Tony's Lap.

"When I Was Siting By Her Hospital Bed That Night, Something Deep Down Was Telling Me It Was Her Time, I Just Didn't Want To Believe It. But God Made His Decision, And It Was Time For My Mom To Go Home. At First I Thought, Why? Why God? I Already Lost My Father, Now My Mom Too?? But Nicki Helped Me To Understand, She's Now In A Better Place. I'll Never Forget Her Laugh, Smile, Even The Tears That We've Shared Over The Years. From Cleaning My Bruises, To Letting Me Work With An Great Artist." Tears Roll Down My Face. "She Maybe Gone, But She'll Never Be Forgotten. I Know She Wants Me To Watch Over My Brothers And Raise Them To Be Great Men. I Will Always Love My Angel In Heaven." And With That I Couldn't Say Anymore, Words Couldn't Explain How Much My Mother Meant To Me, And How Much I'd Miss Her.

I Walk Away From The Podium Back To My Seat. I See A Few People Wiping Away Their Tears. I Take My Seat And My Grandma Leans In From Behind Me.

"That Was Beautiful Baby." She Says In Her Sweet Tone That I Loved.

I Smile. "Thanks Gram."

After That I Sat As Javon Went Up To Share His Words, And The Service Was Over.

(Skipping The Burial. Going To Later That Night.)

I Knocked On Von's Room Door Of My Grandma's House. We're Staying With Her Until We Get Everything Situated.

"Come In." He Answers.

I Walk In And He Was Laying Down Face Up In His Bed Wiping His Face.

I Sit Down At The Desk That Sat By The T.V.

"Are You Okay?"

He Nods His Head.

"You Sure?" I Ask.

He Sits Up As His Shoulders Sink. "No." He Says As His Voice Cracks.

I Walk Over To The Bed Sitting And Hugging Him.

"I'm Gonna Miss Her Alot." He Says.

"I Know Babyboy, I Am Too."

"Why Did She Have To Go? I Mean What's Gonna Happen To Us? What If They Split Us Up And I Never See You And Zay Again?" He Rants.

"Calm Down. Gram And Nicki Won't Let That Happen To Us." I Say Reassuring Him.

He Grabs Me Hugging Me Tight. "Promise?"

"Of Course." I Reply Hugging Him Back.

We Sit There For Some Time Talking About The Things Mom Used To Do To Make Us Laugh, And Hold Us Together.

We Then Begin To Get Tired And I Get Up Leaving To My Room.

After Saying My Prayers, I Crawl Into Bed With The Thought Of Not Being Home And My Mother Not Being Just Across The Hall In Her Room.

Even Though It Killed Me To Know She Was Gone Forever.... I Know She'll Always Be Watching Over Me.

-Sorry, I Know This Was A Short Chapter, But The Next Chapter Will Be The Last. ^.^

I Want To Dedicate This Chapter To A 12 Year Old Girl That Used To Go To My School Named Dezeray, She Was Hit By A Car Sending Her Into A Coma. She Died Three Days Ago.

Rest In Peace Angel! 12.17.12