Proceed with Caution

Resolutions

25th December, 2020.

Hey Andy,

This letter has been a long time coming. I have so many remember when memories of us. Remember that concert we went to last year. Screaming our lungs out and thinking the night would last forever. I know I messed up but I just wanted you to think about that. Merry Christmas.

Love, Rose.

27th December, 2020.

Hey Andy,

My last letter didn't get returned, so that has been a ray of hope. I wanted to start the letter with Dear Andy, but that might be too pushy. Remember how after the concert, we went sight-seeing at midnight, that would have been awkward if we weren't in the city that never sleeps. Another moment I just want you to think about. I'm missing my best friend.

Love, Rose.

30th December, 2020.

Rose,

You're right, Dear Andy would have been pushy.

Regards, Andy.

31st December, 2020.

Dearest Andy,

You finally replied to my letters, it took 61 letters(well emails), 275 days, a lot of begging but it worked. Hi and bye. Remember when we got back home and we were in so much trouble for going to New York on our own, it was fun, you have to have missed your partner in crime. I'm sorry I truly am,call me anytime.

Love, Rose.

1st January, 2021.

Rose,

I found the saying true that life is short. I don't want to live in regret so I would appreciate it if you called. Day and Time?

Your partner in crime, Andy.

1st January, 2021.

Dear Andy,

I would love to call though. Saturday by 3pm.

Love, Rose.

3rd January, 2020.

"Hey"

"It's been awhile"

"So how's it going?"

"I'm so sorry, Rose sobs"

"It's okay. Everyone's fine."

"Noona's good now and Sarah's fine"

"How are you feeling?"

"Guilty, I feel terrible"

"I get it, I was so angry at you but it doesn't make much of a difference now"

"The baby died because of me", Rose stated as a fresh wave of tears flowed

"We should have all been more cautious"

Deep breaths, Andy. Breathe.

"The baby died because of complications at birth, not because of you."

"Andy, Im-"

"I'll talk to you later"

Sorry, that's what everyone had been saying. Why didn't Rose just take the test before coming for the party. It was a gathering of just seven people, it felt safe enough. Why didn't I ask Rose to go home when she said she didn't take the "stupid" test. Noona and Sarah, my then six month pregnant sister had it the worst. All was fine as everyone pulled through, but then Sarah had complications because of the virus and she barely made it. Prayers, the online church community and therapy has helped me forgive Rose and forgive myself.