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Good Enough | Draco Malfoy x Fem!Reader

Good Enough

*based loosley on the song line without a hook   by ricky montgomery*

Request: can I ask for Draco x reader where the reader is sassy, but also kind Slytherin (like one of the kind Slytherin)?? And Draco has a huge crush on her? Super fluffy? ~

Warnings: low self-esteem, angst, smidge of house stereotyping, i don't know the meaning of fluff im so sorry

Authors note: you asked for fluff and I have no excuses for how this turned out except this song has been stuck in my head for weeks now. I hope you like it anyway despite the angst... i tried to make it fluffy make up at the end?

Also, I'm not saying this is a prequel to but it kinda fits... pretty sure it makes vulnerable love hurt more though.)

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Draco wasn't sure it was possible to want back what he's never had.

He never knew being stuck in the awkward phase of being an 'almost couple' is something he could miss, that he'd ever long to feel the heat that would creep up his cheeks when their eyes met, to feel the nauseating butterflies flap in his stomach when she smiled at him or the jolt of nervous energy that would rip through him whenever their fingers accidentally grazed each other's under tables or in corridors.

Yet now that those little things are beyond his grasp, he's desperate for them again, desperate for her. It might be easier to miss her if she were gone, rather than just sitting at the other end of the Slytherin table, or across the room during classes, it would be easier not to see her, the constant reminder of what he's allowed him self to ruin.

They weren't supposed to get along, every conflicting personality trait dooming them to a life as enemies. Everyone knows her, the 'nice' Slytherin. It's a title given to her by her classmates, the too-cocky Gryffindors who can't see past Slytherin's bad reputation as bullies and snobs, a bad-reputation fuelled by Draco Malfoy himself.

No one could have expected them to end up the way they did, dates in Hogsmeade or hushed conversations by the common room fire in the early hours of the morning and afternoons spent by the lake. No one could have expected them to get along so well.

Draco knows that everyone has expected this though, for them to fall apart before they've even had the chance to begin. It's what they've expected of him all along after all, to break her heart.

He's pretty sure he hasn't got the right to be looking for her like this, seeking her out desperately to get her back, once again deluded into believing he ever had her in the first place. He's the one who called it off in a moment of certainty that it was the right thing to do, a selfless act. And so it's wrong for him to be here right now, back in their secret spot.

She's exactly where he assumed she would be, curled beneath the tree she was always affectionately calling theirs. His entire body tenses painfully at the sight of her, face hidden in her palms and body shaking, not from the cold, but from the trembling of barely silenced sobs.

He wonders if it's his racing heart that she can hear that alerts her to his presence and has her looking up from her hands, teary eyes meeting his in surprise. Then, she pulls her brows into a well-justified scowl and a lump forms in Draco's throat that he can't seem to swallow.

"What are you doing here?"

An incredibly valid question for which Draco can only provide selfish answers. It seems silly to tell her that he's hear to win her back, and futile given her growing anger. Yet he won't be able to live with himself if he doesn't, miserable without her.