Forbidden Love || Dean Winchester

Chapter 25

My dad and I sat in the kitchen with a cup of coffee as I explained to him Dean and I dating. He cut me off though and smiled at me. "It's okay McKenzie I already know. On the way back here Dean explained to me that you two are together and that he loves you more than anything. I approve honey. He clearly cares about you and I know he'd do just about anything for you." He assured me.

Hearing him say that made me happy as I hugged him tightly. After pulling away I thanked him and let him know how much that really meant to me. "So your friend Castiel explained that Chuck isn't dead, just off your radar. We need to get you to safety."

"We already tried that dad. He found me by using you and almost killed me and my friends." I sighed. He grabbed my hand and gave me an assuring smile. "We'll figure this out." He said. I nodded and took a sip of my coffee. I've never been a coffee person but for some reason this taste really good.

Dean had then entered the room catching the attention of my dad and me. "I'm gonna head to bed," my dad smiled before wishing me a good night and leaving. Dean sat down next to me, his eyes looking into mine. He seems on edge and I already know why. We all are after the whole Chuck incident. He's putting us all over the edge with anxiety of his next move.

"How are you doing?" He asked, finally breaking the silence between us. I sighed and shrugged my shoulders.

"Fine given the fact that God is trying to kill me."

He smiled and grabbed my hand in his, placing a soft kiss on my knuckles. Everything about this situation sucks and if Dean wasn't by my side I'm not sure I'd get through it. "Your dad isn't the only one who thinks we should find a safer place for you to be."

"Dean look how well that worked out last time," I sighed and he looked down at the table as he closed his eyes. Stress appeared on his face. Seeing him feel so helpless makes me upset and I hate that. My hand rested on his as he grabbed onto mine, holding it tightly. I feel safe when I'm with him and that should be enough for now. Like my dad said, we'll figure something out.

"McKenzie I can't do this," he let out, barely above a whisper. My heart sank in my chest as various thoughts swarmed around inside my head. I really hope he doesn't mean what I'm thinking. "Do what?" I ask trying to cover the fact that I'm terrified for the answer. He looked at me, his eyes holding nothing but sadness.

"I love you but the constant worrying and you refusing to let me keep you safe is too much."

"What are you saying?" I asked feeling every part of my heart break. He removed his hand from mine and slid his hand down his face before letting out a shaky breath.

"I think you already know...we need to take a break until this whole Chuck thing is situated."

"No, what happened to us getting through this together?" I asked as anger and sadness took over. My emotions became all over the place and all I wanted was him to tell me this is some stupid joke.

"We are but I think it's best we split up for right now." He tried taking my hand back in his but I moved away from him.

"No forget it, we're done." I let out before leaving the room, ignoring his calls for me. I closed my bedroom door behind me before sliding down it, letting tears slip down my cheeks. My heart shattered inside me as I covered my face with my hands.

How could he do something like this to me? He said we'd do this together and now he wants to breakup. There's this sudden soft knocking at my door and I rolled my eyes thinking it's Dean. "Honey please open the door," my dad called from the other side. I stood and opened the door to find a look of concern on his face.

No words had to be said as he pulled me into a hug. He let me cry into his chest as he rubbed my back soothingly. "I know baby, it hurts." He says as a sob left my lips. He doesn't understand just how much it hurts. He doesn't get that Dean is the first guy I've ever felt like this for. As if he could read my thoughts he spoke up.

"First loves are always the hardest to let go. But listen to me...it gets better. It never feels like it will but I assure you it does. If I didn't let go of my first love I'd never of met your mom and had you." He told me while wiping my wet cheeks.

"Thank you dad, I love you." I smiled sadly.

"I love you too, McKenzie." He said while giving me another tight hug. When he left I got ready for bed and laid down. Only sleep wouldn't come to me and instead I stared up at the ceiling with watery eyes while thinking of Dean. Maybe after we're done dealing with Chuck my dad and I can go back to Colorado and forget we ever met them.

It would probably be easier on my heart not seeing Dean everyday. I closed my eyes trying to get some sleep but it refused to consume me. Annoyingly, I couldn't stop crying and I so badly wish it would all just stop. It hurts and my heart is aching for him. All I want is to be in his arms again and knowing it's not going to happen kills me inside.

All I want is Dean Winchester.