This is for the Delilah everyone has eventually.
D is for the devastatingly good looks.
E is for every single time her laugh made my day.
L is for leading me on just as a game.
I is for the insider secrets she told me I can never repeat.
L is for the lies that she told me that messed with my head.
A is for the awful whispers that poisoned my back.
H is for the heart that broke now that you're dead.
It's weird
Being 'in love'
Being IN
Being the it crowd
Being alive
This mad cacophony of emotions warring in your head
You can't sleep
Can't be
Can't move
Can't leave
You're too hot
Too cold
Too slow
Too bold
Too young
Too old
Too drunk
Too high
Just do it
At least try
Close your eyes
Close your heart
Close your arms
Play the part
Unrequited
Unrepelled
Unremoved
Under spell
Wake up
Fuck up
Shape up
Show up
Give up
Throw up
Shoot up
Don't feel
Don't breathe
They can smell fear
I'm scared
You're sick
The ends getting near
This pause in time
Won't let me go
Until I burn up whole
Douse me in
These icy flames
And then call me a whore
This is so I heal
I recover
I repent
I discover
Something broke that day
You held an intervention
You looked me in the eye
And with your gorgeous smile
"Babe, you're a nerd
A geek
A failure
Change yourself
Maybe I'll look twice
To see your shattered corpse"
Well I didn't
Thank god
I basically flipped you off
I'm me
Just me
You won't change that at all
Looking back I guess everything was
Rose tinted
Nothing hinted
The disgusting inside
You're protected
Unaffected
Well this is my goodbye
One of us doesn't deserve the other
I don't deserve the glory
The fame
The attention
The game
And you
Well babe
You don't deserve
My obsession
My reflection
My deceit
Or my perfection
You're my mistake
My first fake
My first 'love'
My mistake
You are and always will be
My.
Sweet.
Delilah.
You fucking bitch
xxx
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I got passive aggressive before an English exam
This is what happened
Whoops
Hope you can relate
I like you
No I don't
Just kidding
I think
Good night.
Lola ffing Daydream
