Let's say that we're all candles
Burning through the night
Some flicker
Some glow
Some sparkle
Some grow
In size
In life
In heat
In time
In recklessness
In despair
In profanity
In repair
Should I burn up quickly ?
Maybe then I'll stand out
In a blazing inferno
Until it goes south
Everything does
Is it wrong ?
To stop time
To see crystallized tears
Slipping down the window
Slipping out my fears
To forget
To lose
To regret
To confuse
To die out quietly
To be forgotten
To realize the truth
To sink to the bottom
To die in silence
To live in hatred
To lose everything
You thought was sacred
A metaphor of repetition
A redoing of hate
A whisper of knowledge
I'm tired of talking
It all makes sense
But madness is comfort
My only defense
I repeat
I regret
I'm ashamed
I'm not yet
Not yet ready
Not yet right
Not yet quiet
Not quite bright
Bright enough to be a hero
Bright enough to be special
Bright enough to be eternal
Bright enough to be the fall
Of mankind
Of ladies
Of my self
Of safety
The net is shut
My lips are sealed
The kiss of death
Is close on me
What do I say ?
What do I do ?
What can I pay ?
What can I lose ?
What can I give you ?
What do you need ?
What are your problems ?
What are you to me ?
What are you hiding ?
What's really there ?
What am I doing ?
What is this affair ?
Why do you love me ?
Why do you care ?
Why are you hurting ?
Why are you scared ?
Please tell me
Please answer
Please help me
Please bother
Put down the knife
Put away the pain
Lock away the anger
Steal away the game
Tear apart your wings
Pluck off the lies
Cover you face
With a disguise
Pretends it's ok
I'll sit here and wait
Because I'm fucking useless
It's too goddamn late .
The end
.
.
.
I'm semi terrified
Semi tortured
Semi hangry
Fuck it
Lola
