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𝒮ℯ𝓋ℯ𝓃 - 𝒲𝒽𝓎?

Elianna's POV

I wanted to storm out of there right in this very moment and just go and find the warmth of my mother's arms and sob.

The only thing is, I can't.

She's gone.

So instead I ask the one question I've been longing to ask for a while.

"Why?" I asked tears brimming my eyes and my voice croaking as I spoke one very simple but complicated word.

So many different answers can come from one very simple word.

Why.

Why am I here?

Why?

Why did my mom die?

Why?

Why is Elijah so mean?

Why?

Why do I not know anything?

Why?

I was so caught up in my own thoughts I haven't bothered to look up at my brothers faces.

Each one held confusion and concern.

It's as if no one knew what to say.

No one knew what to answer yet there is so much to answer.

Why couldn't they just say something?

There I go again with the why.

But really.

It's as if they didn't know which I was referring to.

Since so much devastation and unknown and questioning have come into my life in the past 12 hours.

I've always been the imaginative type.

With imagination comes the unknown.

The unknown is what brings along questions.

And I for sure have a lot of questions.

Like why are we here?

Why my mom?

Why not someone else?

Why not..........me?

It seems so scary to think of death, but in this moment all I can think of is that.

My eldest brother Elijah spoke about my mother with such hatred.

She was his mom too, was she not.

So how come only I have these feelings.

Why couldn't I be numb, like the rest.

Why couldn't I just forget?

Why couldn't I be happy?

It seems as soon as I get an ounce of happiness, all the bad memories come racing back to hurt me.

It seems I can never run away from the past.

My past.

It's so crazy to think that the future will become the past, and then you find yourself only dwelling on the past.

People say to look to the future, but how can one look to the future when you have no idea what is to come?

"Elianna?" A strong stern voice snapped me out of my voice.

I looked up to see stone cold eyes looking at me. His eyes held no emotion.

My eldest brother Elijah.