Happiness

Arc 1: Part 18

[Author: This is FICTION. And if u want to know these arcs and storyline will be angsty and will talk allot about death, suicide and etc. Just a warning and all.
And warning some arcs will have happy endings and some won't so take out some tissues if u are an emotional mess such as myself that will cry at anything]

When I saw that sketch it brought me back to that time.....

When she was alive....

Rei looked to me.

His ocean eyes swallowing me whole.

I know I shouldn't hate him....but all the pent up rage....it was all directed at him....

I remember that day I saw him again at school.

He looked like he was recovering.

I felt angry.

And thought if only he died instead of her.

But now I feel something else.

It feels like....he is a dead person....not like before.....where he was empty and swallowed by darkness...now it seems he is about to leave. Like he is slipping away.

I stood there looking at his ocean eyes.

"I know. You think I should die."

Those words made me freeze.

"But....Kameyo......she told me to live....my life to the fullest.....i have already failed her....but even now that i know I don't have much time I want to enjoy it."

Those words shocked me. But I also knew it sounded like something she would saw.

"Hmmm....if you would be kind enough I would like some help up.....it seems my legs have fallen asleep."

I unconsciously help him up feeling light headed.

"Thanks..."

I nod blankly to him as he begins moving toward the door with his crutches pucking up his backpack.

Why....didn't....i say anything...why can't I say sorry....why.....

I feel so.....guilty......

He was just recovering and I just shorten his lifetime......I am scum......

Why am I blaming him....for my sisters death....it wasn't his fault.....

Why can't I just say sorry....but is that enough just say sorry an he will forgive me for all the crap I did....

I feel that is not going to be enough....

Why is it he makes me questions so many things....urggghhh my head hurts so much....

I punch the wall in anger as I look towards the sun.

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"You little slippery thing! I told you not to go running off and stay close!"

Nina puffs up her cheeks in anger as she represents me for sneaking off again.

She crosses her arms as she puffs her cheek out.

"Sorry."

I apologize as I drop my head ashamed.

She looks to me with mixed emotions across the desk.

"....fine its okay.....i forgive....but if you want to sneak off again lets do it together. Lately..."

She then quickly glances around sneakily before leaving closer to me.

"I have had annoying bug bugging me lately..."

"Oh~ my sweet Nina I see your talking about me with another new unique nickname."

Nina quickly straightens up startle as a young man puts his hand on her shoulder.

He has Golden flaxen hair and amber eyes.

[He is the 1st male lead Hoshi from the Bushida family. The well renown playboy of the school. ]

"My name is Hoshi Bushida and you are The Wang correct."

I nod to him.

"It seems you are the one that has taken up my dear Ninas time lately."

A glint goes through his eyes as he smiles mysteriously at me.

"Nina my dear you need to give me more attention you are making me jealous~"

"Uuurgggh!! Stop it I am not at all interested in playing a game of cat and mouse with how about you go find Akako or some other girl who is infatuated with you!"

He smirks as she brushes him off her he raises his hands up in surrender.

"But my dear Nina you are the only girl here at this school that finds me an annoyance and I find that interesting and fun!"

[Gosh, Hoshi is a spoiled brat(¬3¬)~ His father has always taught him that you can get anything you want as long as you got power so when he finds the FL is not whatsoever interested in him he thinks of it as a challenge!!!]

"Oh my~ looks like school is out!!! Saved by the bell I am a bit to busy to pay attention to you Hoshi so byyye~"

Nina jumps to her and marches over to me throwing me over her shoulder......

Rei: (O^O)???????
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Hoshi: (O_O)?????!!!!!

And before I could compete what just happen she storms out of the classroom!

"Urrrgh!!! Nina aren't I heavy!!! you can put me down!!"

"No you are as light as a couple of grapes!! Lets get out of here while we can!"

Why....do I feel sad.....i know this body is very thin....but to be lifted over a girl of petite stature.....can hurt me soo much.....it hurts even more than any physical pain I have felt
...it felt like she did some critical damage to my ego...