Happiness

Arc 1: Part 16

Today yet again I have sneaked away from Nina's side.

I have found myself on the roof where I saw Tanaka before.

I have been wandering what's so good about the roof and why this is his main hang out spot.

Since he used to be up here all the time when Rei was alive.

I push myself carefully up the stairs with my crutches.
With my back pack over my shoulder.

It has pills necessary for me to take.

And emergency aid.

Nina gave this to me since I seem to always sneak away from her, she feels better knowing I have it.

I carefully move myself up the stairs ignoring the tingly pain in my body.

Once up a push the door open.

I move myself up on the roof.

A fence is placed around the building for safety.

The roof has a concrete smooth surface.

But....the view.....is priceless....

The blue sky.....the sun the clouds the breeze.....

It all just makes me feel relieved I am alive.

I smile as I move myself to the fence to find a spot for me to sit.

I carefully situate myself on the ground moving the crutches to my side.

I open my backpack taking out a sketchbook and a pencil and I just let my inspiration take me.

I mindlessly sketch.

I glide the pencil on the paper as I begin to draw the roof......the sky.....and Nina standing on the roof happily full of life.

'She would have liked this view.....she would've dragged the old owner to pose for her while she took photos like crazy.'

Once done I sigh from the nostalgic memories the previous owner had of her.

I look up to the sky placing my sketchbook dazedly spacing off.

She was pregnant with that mans child.

The child was another reason she committed suicide.

But it still makes me sad for both of them.

She ended the child's life before it got to live.

It doesn't matter if its that mans fault and that it is his child but.....its not like it choose to exist.....

It was innocent.....

It wasn't its father.....

If only she thought.....

I am sure she would've stayed strong for the baby....

But her rage and disgust for that man overwhelmed her.

She killed herself infront of Rei........

Traumatizing him perminently.

I wish the world wasn't so cruel to them.

But its not like I can change that.

The world is both cruel and beautiful.

I smile as I shake my head bringing me back from my thoughts to look for my sketchbook to find its gone.

?????????!!!!

I look around and then finally notice a looming figure over my body holding my sketchbook looking at the sketch dazedly.

'The second male lead?'