Happiness

Arc 1: Part 12

Tanaka Wang/ 2nd male lead POV

"Hi brother......."

A small girl smiles towards me as she wobbles up to me.

"I'm XXX Wang."

She walks up to me as she smiles nervously.

"....."

A soft fluttery feeling envelopes me.

It feels warm.....why........this is weird....its and imperfection.

I look away from her and walk away leaving her standing alone in the hallway.

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I grab my head groaning.

Why do....keep having this dream.

I feel my chest as my heart throbs.

I was born without emotions.

My father taught me emotions only get in the way for my future and I need to forget them.

I believed him.

He said having emotions makes you imperfect.

But why does it feel like I'm so empty....

I think the first time I actually felt emotions with anyone was my little sister....
Because of it I avoided her not wanting the emotion to control me. I saw her as a bump in my road and wished she could dissappear.

But now that she actually gone why does it hurt so much.

I touch my chest as a pain overwhelms me.

I move from the bed and walk away from the nurse office as the headache increases as I walk to the bathroom.

'After that I felt angry.....angry that I wasn't able to protect her....angry at my father.....angry at Rei.....who was to weak to protect her.....angry at everything...."

My body begins to shake as I begin to hyperventilate.

My vision gets blurry as I reach my hands towards the wall guiding me to the restroom.

"I thought it was disgusting I felt emotions until I met her.....she was crying on the rooftop....I managed to see her and I unknowing said 'Why do you feel sad and why do you feel such emotions isn't it meaningless in the long run.' She looked up to me calmly with tears streaming down her face. 'Emotions are what makes us human without them we would just be empty.' Those words made another emotion well up in me. The same emotion I had with my sister. After that I unknowingly searched her out."

I walk to the bathroom sink as I splashed cold water on my face as I begin to go back to normal.

'I asked someone what these emotions are....they told me I was in love..
.'

I walk back out of the restroom as I begin walking to my class.

Only to bump into her.

She fidgets her arms back an forth as she looks back up to me.

"Ahhh! Tanaka! I didn't see you coming!"

She dusts herself off as she gets up.

I look at her red hair that is streaming over her shoulder and her honest green eyes.

"...."

I nod to her.

"Have you seen Rei!"

At this my name a strange emotion overwhelms me.
......i think its anger...

"No...."

"Oh! Too bad.......he walked off a while ago without me knowing it....that slippery little fella.....he needs to take his meds...."

She fidgets nervously with her skirt as she mumbles things unknowingly as she passes me in a hurry.

I look away from her feeling my beating warmth in my chest as I walk away.

A lunch bell goes off signaling me to go to the roof.

I walk to the place out of reflex.

Many people don't go there often because they say its haunted.

I don't mind....it is quiet.

I walk up the stairs to see the door is open.

I walk up to the door and open it and walk to the railings.

I look at the campus as students pour out of their classes like ants.

'.....Rei.......'

I think back to the time at the hospital when I saw him looking out the window.

He has been emotionless after the incident and has never really showed any emotions other than fear.....hatred....and dread....but those eyes........were different.....

I look down at the trees when I discover something.

Under a tree I see a figure laying down.

'Is that him....'

I lean over to get a closer look....when calm blue eyes meet mine through the leaves.

At the moment I meet those calm ocean eyes I feel time stop.

His eyes look at me as if they are looking through my soul.

But then he closes his eyes and looks away from me as he sits up.

I watch as Nina stumbles towards him with a bottle off pills as she begins to nag him.

I touch my chest confused.

Why is it....my heart stopped when I met his eyes....