Smut Stories and Imagines- Harry Potter

Sirius Black- break up (au) drivers license

so i wanted to make a story based off of the song drivers license. it'll be in 2020.  flashbacks will be in italics

TW: break up, angst, thoughts of suicide, drunk driving

I should've known right. It makes me laugh. I was so incredibly stupid to believe he actually loved me. Wasn't I? Was it true? We would stay up and talk lying on his car. Talk about dumb shit and how are parents were idiots. I would cry into his arms about something my mom and dad did and I would let him cry into mine.

It was the team romance everyone wanted. The bad boy finally settles with a nice girl. What a load of fucking shit.

"I'm sorry it's just I don't think we're good for each other."

"We're not good for each other! Bullshit. You were the only one who made me feel like something Sirius! Don't tell me that you regret us!"

"I love you it's jus-"

"No save your fucking sorry excuses. I guess one girl isn't enough for you huh?"

"Look y/n I- At least let me give you a ride home."

"Don't bother! I have a fucking drivers license! THE VERY THING I CAME HERE TO SHOW YOU."

"I'm sorry y/n but I-"

"You said forever! We talked about it all night how I'd drive to your house. But you know what. You're a fucking asshole just like they say Sirius Black. Your parents were right about you. You're fucked up!" I ran out the door and got into my car.

So here I am pissed out of my fucking mind. Weed. Alcohol. Drugs. Whatever makes me forget about him. But you know what it's not like I ever will. I started to sober up. Maybe I should just end it all. Let go and forget.

I saw Sirius enter with a year stained face. I ran so fast got out and didn't look back. I got into my car and took a swig from the bottle of vodka in my passengers seat. I slammed on the gas peddle and started to zoom down the road soon getting on the highway.

20 mph

I'll love you forever.

30 mph

Can I kiss you

40 mph

Can we stay up here all night look up at the stars

50 mph

I think about you all the time

60 mph

We can be broken together

70 mph

Will you go out with me?

And then I screamed as loud as I could. My vision blurred through tears. I wanted it all to end. I watched the little red needle climb and my speed accelerated. And then it happened I had my windows rolled down. And everything ended as I heard

"Y/N NO!"

-

"Do you know how much she loved you?" y/n's friend asked.

"I could've stopped this."

"She wanted to end her life even before this. Then she met you. Everything changed. Even her own fucking parents didn't come. It's not your fault Sirius but why. Why did you leave her."

"Because I couldn't give her everything she wanted. She had a future. I have a deadbeat dad and a mother who hates me. I'd be stuck here forever and she'd move on."

"You're so fucking dense Sirius. She loved you! She wanted to marry you! Leaving her wasn't helping her! It almost killed her!" she started to cry and stormed out

"But it didn't." Sirius mumbled looking at the hospital bed where she lay. "And it won't." he said leaving