The Pediatrician (Fifth Harmony- Dinah/You/Normani)

Chapter 8

*Your POV*

Today was our last day off, and Normani, Dinah, Camila and Lauren went to go to the mall or something, but I was so tired I opted to just stay back with Regina. Neither of us were used to tour life and not getting a lot of sleep all the time yet. Though happily Ally decided to stay with us.

“Doc!!’ A tiny voice called, and I turned around to see Regina clutching onto the tiny walker that I had gotten for her yesterday when the girls had a quick interview, though we also got supplies to decorate it and icecream cones of course.

“Yeah Princess?” I asked with a tired smile, trying to ignore the exhaustion that was threatening to overtake me.

“C….Ca… caaa..n D.. De… Dec..” Regina struggled to stammer, her face filling with frustration and her tiny fists clenching so hard that her knuckles turned white.

“It’s okay Princess. Take your time and relax. You got this! Remember, you just have to let the words come out. Don’t get too down on yourself, you’re doing so great!” I said encouragingly, patting her cheek.

She nodded slightly and took a deep breath, her lip pouting out, and I could tell she just wanted to give up, but she pushed through it anyway.

As I waited for her to try to get the words out, I couldn’t help but think that even though it’s been absolutely amazing to get to hang out with my heroes and to just see them goofing around, or especially when they’re in their element either in the studio, on stage, or in dance rehearsals. that wasn’t the most amazing part of this experience.

The most amazing part was watching Regina progress, even it was more slowly than her and the girls wanted. It was one of the most amazing things I’ve ever witnessed. It was starting to give me hope and happiness that I never thought I’d get back.

Though as I gazed at Regina who was still working on getting the words out, all this proudness and hope faded almost into thin air, and I felt the world  around me fading as the flashbacks that always haunted me threatened to swallow me up.

I felt panic bubble up as the feeling of hopelessness entrapped me like a net as I heard the voice that will always haunt me beg me to help them, and even try telling me that it wasn’t my fault, when I clearly know they were lying.

I could feel myself start shaking, and I felt blackness blissfully creeping up, and I was ready to open it with open arms, anything to escape the memories, when a voice and a soft hand on my arm brought me out of the tortuous thoughts.

“Hey Y/N, Regina asked if we could watch Frozen and decorate her walker. That’s okay right?” Ally asked softly, and I silently hoped that she didn’t notice my state, but the soft look in her eyes  assured me that she did.

“Y..Yeah.” I stammered, still shaking slightly, trying to fight the tears back. I had to be strong. I couldn’t let this get to me, I just couldn’t. I couldn’t go back to that place, not again.

Ally didn’t say a word, and simply just grabbed my hand and squeezed it as we followed Regina into the living room.