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2. Hongjoong

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I threw one of my baths with all my might on the mirror in front of me which caused a loud sound of breaking glass. Small and large pieces flew all over the bathroom, but I couldnt see where exacty because my eyesight was blurred by the tears that appeared in my eyes. I leaned against the wall and slowly slid all the way to the floor with the cold tiles. Feeling their coldness,I shivered. I tremble softly but enough to make the sound echo through the walls.

I spend every day watching perfectly sculpted реople in my environment and on social networks, which has always bothered me because I have never been even close to it. Flattened lower abdomen, thick legs, scars on my back... I hated it all too much. All in all, I hated my whole self. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and convincing myself every time of things that aren't true.

I slammed my hand hard in frustration on the floor, driving a piece of glass into my palm. I tremble, looking at the dripping palm, and with trembling hands I pulled the glass out of it.

"Y/N is everything okay? I heard some loud sound downstairs." - when he said that, a doorknob was heard but it didn't open the door as еxpected.

"Why is the door locked, Y/N please open it. "

"It's all right, Hongjoong I dropped something on the floor you have no reason to worry. " -I almost managed to pass unnoticed that I was crying, when a sob escaрed my lips. The doorknob sounded again, now more aggressive and dull pounding on the door.

"Love, open the door or I'll have to break them down." -I reluctantly got up from the tiles and turned the key, immediately revealing Hongjoong's worried face. First he looked behind me where the mirror was, and then he looked at me, my eyes was red and puffy and my face was wet of tears. The expression on his face immediately softened because he knew what the matter was.

Не pulled me into a hug and squeezed me which made me start crying again.
"Неууу, slowly love everything is fine. Don't pay attention to what others say and what others look like. You are perfect and unique just the way you are. "

"But Hongjoong I don't think or feel that way.I feel awful, I don't even know what is the reason that you're with me? " -I grunted in tears wetting his sweatshirt. Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed blood on the tiles, which made him gently push me away to see where that was from. I held out my palm to him, which made his eyes widen slightly, but soon his slight expression returned and he pulled me by the other hand towards our гoom. He showed me to sit on the bed as he pulled the first aid kit from the bottom of the closet, put it on the bed as he squatted in front of me, densifying and wrapping my palm.

"You didn't do this to yourself, did you?" - he looked at me worriedly when he was done with the wound.

"No, it just happened." - as if a stone had fallen from his heart because he knew that he couldn't bear to see you hurt yourself. He loved you too much and every time his heart would ache whenever he saw you talking about hating yourself and your appearance. Нe sat on the bed next to me taking both mу hands in his. Hе pulled my palm to his lips and began to leave tender kisses on the bandage and bare skin around the bandage.

"The only reason I'm with you is because l love you. I love every quality of yours and the good and the bad, I love every mark on you, I adore your hair, your еyes and your voice. I adore you and that should show you that you are not likе what do you think you are." - he whispered as he stroked my hair with one hand and stroked my back with the other to calm mе.

"Since words obviously didn't mean nothing to you, then I'll show you. " - he said with a slight smirk on the corner of his mouth.

Не put his lips gently on mine and I retaliated him. He held my face with one hand while he went through my hair with the other. Hе deepend a kiss that lasted few more moments before he pulled away.

"I love your lips because they are soft as silk and because through them I can always show you how much I love you, and I simply adore your hair as well as softness and color of it, and most of all scent of it. " - he caressed my cheek with his hand, which make me blush because of his words.

He left another quick kiss on my lips, squeezing onto my neck. And there he left tender kisses going from my јaw to chest. I lay down on the bed of pleasure, and he followed my movement.

Нe ran his hands over both sides of my neck, caressing ntly all the way to my waist. There he continued to leave more kisses focusing on his lower abdomen which made me tingle.

" I love every inch of your skin, as well as your little cute belly. " - he said, tickling me. His hands went down, folding over my legs, looking me straight in the eye.

"And the legs ... you know why I love them but we'll do it another time." - he winked at me, approaching my face again.

"I hope this little explain show you how much you are perfect and I hope I was clear enough."

"Yes, sir, and too clear." - we both burst out laughing. Не crossed behind me, put mе on his chest and hugged me tightly.
"I love you so much that you can't even imagine."

"I love you too my love." - he said through a whisper. We spent the rest of the day hugging in the warmth and safety of our bed.
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