Small Stories

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TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!!!

PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! I'VE WARNED YOU! IF YOU ARE DEPRESSED/SUICIDAL/ANYTHING ELSE THAT MAY GET TRIGGERED, PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER!!! 

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YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

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I'm so sorry. But I cant take it anymore. The voices in my head wont leave. They won't quit telling me to end my miserable life. For years I've ignored them. For years I went through the pain they brought when they spoke. 

But right now, I'm going to listen to them. 

I'm going to listen to them taunt and tease me. I'm going to listen to them laugh and talk about me. I'm going to listen to them... And obey them.

I'm so sorry to leave you like this, but I can't deal with it anymore. No one will listen. Everyone thinks I'm crazy. You don't, but you're the only one. You're the only one that listens to me. But in my head, you're outrageously outnumbered. 

The voices tell me to do things, as if they're looking through my own eyes. 

Cut deeper.

Dont eat it.

Throw it up later.

And for all these years I've listened to them and obeyed their orders, other than one.

Kill yourself.

I promised myself, Heck I promised you that I would never do it. But unfortunately, this is going to have to be another broken promise.

I hope you will remember me for what I was before that rope was around my neck. Before I was hanging from the ceiling, a foot off the ground. And it pains me to leave you behind in this cruel world. I fear the voices will leave me and go to you, their next victim. 

Please don't blame this on you. I can assure you, that it wasn't you that influenced my actions. It was me. And the voices inside my head that scream until they are heard. 

I promise to keep you safe. But you have to promise me something too.

Please don't join me.

I dont want you to join me until after you've lived your life. Until after you found your love. Because I've done just that. I've lived my life the best I could without the voices winning, but finally they have. 

And I've found my love.

You.

You make me complete and when you smile it makes the voices go away and leave me alone. But once you leave, I'm physically alone, but not mentally. 

I hope you understand that I dont want to do this, I dont want to leave the one person that keeps me alive. But I have to. My time is up. I can feel it. The voices have a clock in the background, and it stopped ticking. 

I will help you throughout your life, I will always be there as long as you believe I am. If you don't want me there, I will respect your wishes and leave. But as long as you want me there, I won't let the nightmares haunt your dreams. I won't let the voices get into your head. I won't let your life end like mine. 

I Love you, I really, really do.

And I will see you soon, just not too soon.