Keepers Of Oakmanor (sasunaru)

chapter 22

Chapter 22

Sasukes pov

"If that's true then why did I block them out?" I mumbled into his neck. The tears wouldn't stop coming.

"The memories will come back soon enough." He whispered back. I pulled back and smashed my lips to his. I wanted to taste them one last time.

*zzz*

"Sasuke you have to let me go." He whispered pulling back. "That's probably them now."

"No please don't leave me." I said as tears started streaming down.

"Baby stop." He mumbled. There was obvious pain in his voice. He may have been smiling but pain was written all over his face.

"Before you go at least tell me, why is my heart breaking at seeing you leave?" I asked attempting to bring back my inner strength.

I stepped back so I was holding his hands intertwining them with mine.

"Sasuke please don't ask me such questions. I can't.... answer." Now it was his turn. Tears welled up in his eyes. He looked away closing his eyes tight. "For you would never believe me."

"Yes I will." I argued back frowning. I grabbed his face in my hands and forced him to look at me. "You don't want to tell me."

"I'm sorry." He whispered. "It's better that you remember them on your own."

"Why?" I asked wiping the tear stains. I wasnt crying anymore. However he was.

"If I told you then you would never let me go." He whispered. My eyes widened at that statement.

"You are someone very important to me. Aren't you?" I asked. My heart started pounding against my ribcage.

"....." He didn't answer. He just swallowed hard and closed his eyes leaning into my hands.

"Please tell me who you are to me?" I asked in a softer tone.

*Zzz*

"Check your messages first." He answered softly. I only nodded. I could do nothing but nod. 

Itachi-
I told him.

Itachi-
Hide. He's close.

I glanced up wide eyed. I had no time. He knew that.

"Hide." He whispered smiling.

"Tell me first." I asked as he pushed me into some nearby bushes.

"What do you want to know?" He whispered. He stood up and turned around. He was standing close but not too close. Far enough so if anyone was passing by they wouldn't suspect me.

"Who are you to me?" I asked in a whisper. I heard him chuckle. I knew from that little laugh he didn't want to answer. But he promised so I knew he would.

Little to my knowledge there were a few people closing in behind me.

I saw a car pulling up. I instantly knew that it was his. He only had time to answer one question.

My heart started racing waiting. It was obvious he didn't want to answer.

Chuckling humorless he started walking away from me towards the sleek black car. I about to stand and run after him to demand an answer, but I was stopped by an arm wrapping itself around me.

The arm hand belonged to Neji. He was pinning my arms to my side making it hard to move. He placed his other on my mouth forcing  me to stay quiet.

I fought hard trying to get away to go after Naruto. All in vain. I saw shikamaru crouching down beside neji watching Naruto walk away from me, possibly forever.

Right before Naruto stepped into the car he looked back smiling sadly. "Namikaze." He said letting a stray tear stream down his cheek. Giving me a sad smile I saw him step into the car for the last time.

My heart shattered hearing that name. That's all he had to say for my memories to come back.

You are my lover.

I thought as I clung onto Neji's arms for support. I leaned back into him as he supported my weight. I closed my eyes and turned my head to the side. I couldn't hold them back no longer. I cried harder then I ever had before.

My lover.

That was the second time my heart had shattered.

Why Naruto? Why do you leave me behind?

I let my body grow weak. Neji was fully supporting me.

My fiancé. Take me with you.  I can't stand to lose you twice.


I thought as I watched him drive away from me. I remembered everything now. I remembered why I had blocked my memories out.

It was to block out the pain of losing the love of my life 500 years ago. Now that I see he's alive and well I had to watch him drive away from me never to be seen again.

It was the most painful thing I have ever felt. Losing the one you love with your whole being walk away and you couldn't do anything about it.

My heart shattered that minute and I feared not even my brother could mend it. It broken, shattered like glass. I lost the love of my life, twice, right before my very eyes. And both times I could do nothing but fall to my knees and cry. He was out of reach.

Why? My love why must I lose you? Why? Maybe I'm not good enough to love you? You deserve a better lover. One who can actually protect you. I'm sorry I'm incapable.

I thought as I collapsed against Neji. Tears streaming down my face, I closed my eyes and cried silently wishing for the pain to subside. However it was in vain. My chest was hurting. My heart was in so much pain I couldn't stand it.

I'm sorry my love. It must be because I'm not loving you enough. But I promise there will be no other after you. You are the only one for me. I just hope if I can't be with you in this life, maybe I can be with you in the next. Goodbye my dearest. I love you with everything in me.

Those were my last thoughts before blackness engulfed my being.