Keepers Of Oakmanor (sasunaru)

chapter 24

Chapter 24

Sasukes pov

"Yes. I am." Neji answered me. Then it was true. He was my lover before Naruto confessed to me. When Naruto confessed to me. I apologized because I was already dating but he kissed me anyway. And through that kiss I felt butterflies in my stomach. I felt like my body was on fire. Right then I knew that he was meant to be mine.

Neji had found out about it and ended it for my sake. We promised to stay friends afterwards. And we did. As hard as it was for him to see me love another he was supportive.

But I guess over time it changed me. Made me forget all those painful memories. I had blocked them out due to the thought of losing everyone I loved. I hadnt even thought of the fact that the Hyugas had survived nor the namikazes. Well all but Naruto.

Itachi and I planned on looking into why we survived but guess we weren't the only ones.

"I'm sorry." I muttered hanging my head. I felt terrible. Now it all understood why he made me feel things. He was my lover before Naruto.

"Its alright Sasuke." He said smilingly gently. I had glanced up to see his reaction. When I did I regretted it immediately.

His smile told me everything. He still loved me but he was satisfied at the thought of loving me from afar, unless he found someone else.

Which I'm hoping he does because after being with Naruto I can't love anyone else. He was my light in the darkness. The thing that makes me wake up in the morning. The thing that kept my heart beating. He was the love of my life. And losing him like that today reminded me of how I had lost him the first time. I couldnt stand it. Last time the fire separated us. But this time he walked away from me. All so I could live, incase the client wanted me dead.

"He'll be alright Sasuke. I promise." Neji said snapping me out of my depressing thoughts.  Glancing up to look at him I saw him wearing a confident smile.

"You really believe that?" I asked eyes widening with hope. He smiled again and nodded.

Sighing with relief made me slouch to the ground. The man I love wasn't dying. It meant I could see him again. It meant I could love him one last time. Except the next time I saw him I wasnt letting him go. He wasnt going to walk away from me a third time.

I simply love the man too much to lose him. I was only saved from heartbreak and possibly death due to it, by Neji.

He made me make a second vow that day. I wasnt going to stop until Neji had found his true love. In secret of course, but I wasnt stopping until Neji was loving the man of his dreams. He helped me find mine. Soon it'll be my turn to return the favor.

"Thank you." I mouthed smiling grateful to him. He only returned my gratitude with a single nod.

"Time for bed you guys. Either you sleep here on the couch or share Sasuke's room. Make sure you let your parents know you're staying over a friend's house. Do not under any circumstance tell which friend or household you're staying in. Am I clear?" Itachi said walking in. He was very clear about it.

I stood up and looked to both Neji and Shikamaru. We only had the one couch and it was only big enough for one person.

My thoughts wandered to both boys. One of them had to sleep with me. My brother nor I wanted anyone to sleep on the floor. My brother doesn't let anyone in his room. He has many secrets in there due to jobs. And the less anyone knows the better.

I didnt want Shikamaru in my room  because I didnt know if he even liked guys. And if I wake him up due to nightmares I doubt he'll know what to do. He wasnt there 500 years ago.

At least Neji was. But I don't think Neji wanted to in case Naruto wouldn't like it. However I knew my fiancé well. He wouldn't mind it under these circumstances. As long as nothing happens he's OK with it. He's a very loving man and a very forgiving one. That's why I fell in love with him.

"Neji can sleep with me. Shikamaru can take the couch." I told my brother. He nodded and went to get blankets and pillows for Shikamaru.

I glanced to Neji and gestured with my head to follow. He frowned at me but followed anyway. No one knew of our relationship back then except for Itachi and Naruto. I made sure to leave that bit of information out. And if he didn't pick up on the last part when I asked him it meant he forgot. Either way it proved to me he was there and he knows everything.

I closed the door behind him as he entered with me. I went to my drawer again and picked out some clothes. Turning around I gave them to him.

"Here get dressed. Your sleeping in the bed with me again." I said softly. I turned around and started undressing.

As I got my shirt off I heard Neji's footsteps retreating. I whipped around to gently grab his arm stopping from from reaching the door.

"What are you doing?" He asked facing away from me. There was clear sadness in his voice.

"Dont leave me." I whispered sadness in mine as well. I lost my fiancé for who knows how long I couldn't lose my best friend too.

"Sasuke I can't change in here." He argued softly. I shook my head im defiance.

"Yes you could. I know my fiancé well. He wont mind. Not under these circumstances. He's not a jealous person. As long as nothing goes on." I whispered squeezing his arm gently.

"I don't know." He wondered to himself. It sounded like he was unsure if he should take my word or not.

Knowing he wouldn't I pulled him back into my chest and hugged him tightly from behind. I buried my face into his soft long brown hair.

"Sasuke." Neji whispered softly. He sounded as if he was in pain. And I felt bad but I couldn't help it. I didn't want him to leave. I knew Neji. And if he got the chance to leave this room he'd leave and not come back til morning. Right now I needed him. I needed his comfort.

"Please." I said voice cracking a bit. A stray tear slipped down my cheek.

I heard him sigh heavily. He knew he lost. He knew he couldn't leave me in this state. Naruto wouldn't forgive him for this. He doesn't mind if he cuddles me but leaving me to cry by myself is what he wouldn't forgive. Not when I needed his the comfort of his warm embrace. I needed to feel the love. I needed someone to cuddle me and tell me it'll be alright.

"Sasuke you need to let go. I need to change." He said looking over his shoulder at me. I glanced up at him to see him looking at me with defeat.

"You sure you're not going to leave?" I asked tightening my arms. He turned his head away from me and nodded slowly. He never lied. I knew this. After making sure I slowly let go.

I watched him changed this time. I wanted to make absolutely sure he wouldn't walk out of the door.

Once he was done he climbed under the blankets and faced towards me.

"I'm ready when you are." He said softly. He opened his arms waiting for me.

I nodded and changed quickly. I had to give Shikamaru some clothes so I ran out the door to give them to him and ran back. I was afraid he would use this chance to leave. Sighing in relief as I closed the door I turned off the lights and climbed into my bed scooting all the way over to Neji letting him wrap his arms around me lovingly.

"I'm sorry." I whispered as tears streamed out again. Neji tightened his grip around me pulling me into his chest. He pulled me into him letting me hear the sound of his steady heartbeat.

That's what soothed me into falling asleep. Afraid and worried that he might slip away in the night I wrapped my arms around him and intertwined my legs with his.

I knew this way he wouldn't leave me to sleep here alone. Not this night. Not when I needed him most.

"I'm sorry for this." I whispered sleepily. He didn't say anything only shushed me and kissed the top of my head soothingly.

"Goodnight." He whispered into my hair and like that we fell asleep.