Look at me

Part 1

As Leo held the crying boy in his arms, the conflicting emotions in his heart raged on. It wasn't easy for him, seeing the person who he loved with his heart and soul break down so bitterly. There was a driving guilt at what he had just let happen, something that could have so easily been prevented if he had been more forthcoming about his feelings. The years of hurt and pain of seeing Fiat be with other people, and all because of him. There was also a strong feeling of happiness, happiness that his love was not in vain. That Fiat loved him just as much as he loved the boy. 

"Leo...", sobbed Fiat. He never felt more secure than when he was in Leo's arms. While his head was still a muddle, there was a certain sense of ease he had, after hearing that Leo loved him as well. As Fiat felt himself melting in the protection of Leo's strong arms, surrounded by his scent, with the comfort and exhilaration of the knowledge that Leo loved him back, his tears ceased. He was thinking how he could stay enveloped in Leo's arms forever when he felt his lips kiss Fiat's ear. Though surprising, this gesture was strangely comforting. Fiat let out an involuntary sigh while tightening his arms around Leo. 

Leo stood up, pulling Fiat with him, all the while never breaking the hug. He traced his one hand to Fiat's neck, gently pulling him back. He saw a tear strained face, red as a tomato. Despite everything that had happened so far, this was a sight that automatically bought a smile to Leo's face. Before Fiat could properly comprehend the meaning of that smile, he felt Leo's lips on his, warm and soft. Fiat sighed into his mouth as he felt Leo's tongue slightly touch the tip of his before sweeping over his upper lip. 

Leo pulled back to look at Fiat's face, a picture of flushed cheeks and slightly parted lips. He had, on countless occasions imagined Fiat this way, but never was any possible fantasy as enticing as this reality. He bent down to pick up Fiat in his arms, while Fiat put his head o his shoulder, smiling. The bed was not far, and both their hearts were beating loudly, almost in tandem. As Leo placed Fiat on the bed gently, with his head on the pillow, neither of them could look away from each other. Leo took off his jacket before getting into bed, on top of Fiat, his hands on either side of his face. There were no words exchanged as Leo slowly reached his lips for the nape of Fiat's neck kissing it gently. That was enough for Fiat to let out another sigh before arching his neck, giving Leo more access. 

Leo was not one to waste time, they had both done enough of that. He kissed that spot again, with a little more force, before licking it lightly. Fiat brought his hands on Leo's back, trying to bring him closer when he gasped as he suddenly felt Leo lightly nibble that area. His breathing was getting heavier, as he felt Leo move to the base of his neck, giving it the same treatment. 

"Leo..", whined Fiat, running his hands up and down Leo's strong muscular back. He had wanted this for so long and now, he was beyond happy. Leo sat up straddling Fiat, before pulling him up by his waist. For one second, as the two boys looked at each with so much passion, that it heightened Fiat's eagerness as much as it tightened Leo's pants. He put his one hand in Fiat's hair as he pulled him close to kiss his forehead, while unbuttoning his shirt with the other hand. He looked at Fiat after opening a button, for permission to go further. Fiat knew what Leo wanted, but he wanted to play with him a little bit. He had always been like that after all. 

Fiat pulled in Leo for a kiss, and this time, it was not gentle. Leo responded eagerly, their tongues licking each other, when he felt Fiat bite his lower lip. Leo pulled back in surprise, to see Fiat smirking, that adorable smirk full of mischief, that he could never get enough of. He licked his lips before grabbing Fiat by a fistful of his hair and pulling him back in. This was his turn to nibble on Fiat's lower lip, that plump lip that tasted of whiskey and strawberries, was just clouding his head with desire. 

Fiat was beyond delighted at this. He pushed his hands inside Leo's shirt, to feel that hard muscle, honed by years on the field, when suddenly Leo pushed him back. On a reflex, he tried to kiss Leo gain, but he was held back by Leo's strong arms. There was a hard unfathomable look in Leo's eyes, that Fiat did not quite comprehend which left him utterly confused, and Fiat did not like to be confused. 

Leo pushed him back down on the bed and removed his own shirt in one swipe before descending on Fiat's lips again. There was an urgency to the kiss, a claiming, as his tongue entered Fiat's mouth and sucked on it. Both of Fiat's hands were pinned to his sides as Leo kissed his jaw and traced his neck with his tongue, in a way that was just short of being painful while making him giddy with pleasure. Leo grabbed the collar of Fiat's shirt for more access to his collarbone and started kissing it. He had always liked this body part of him, so elegant and sexy.

Fiat was squirming under Leo, the movement only heightening Leo's desire addled mind. As he felt his hands being released while the onslaught on his neck and chest continued , he bought his hands to Leo's chest tracing them to his stomach, before rubbing the area around around his belly button with his thumb. 

Leo immediately pulled back and sat up once again, straddling Fiat. Fiat pushed himself up and one look at Leo, he bought his lips to his chest, having only kissed it once before he felt himself being pulled back. Fiat was beyond confused and frustrated. What was going on?

Leo got off the bed and Fiat was just about to complain, not liking the loss of that warmth and weight of Leo's body when Leo said,'Fiat, let's go to sleep.'

Fiat was livid and incredulous. "You are joking. You want to sleep? Now? After everything we have been doing? After everything that has happened tonight?"

"It's not like that Fiat..."

"Have you changed your mind?", Fiat asked, his voice almost a whisper.

A lifetime of rejection and abandonment was at the core of this question. Fiat, who had never truly received back  the love he had given out, couldn't quite help feeling that him being loved back by the person he loved the most in the world might have just been a temporary dream.

"It's ok if you have.", Fiat said, as his heart ached. He couldn't look at Leo as he said this, as he had no desire to see a rejection he was sure was there.

He got up from the bed and was about to leave when Leo grabbed him by his wrist and pushed him back on to the bed and climbed on top of him.

"Listen to me carefully Fiat. I love you. I have loved you for a long time and i know by now that I will never stop loving you. Both of us are together and i have no intention of ever letting you go. Not today and not ever."

Fiat felt the possessiveness in Leo before he felt his lips crashing down on his, and he welcomed it. Leo licked his upper lip, almost reverently, sending shivers down Fiat's spine. He then bit down on Fiat's lip, gently but with enough force to bring out a light cry from Fiat's throat. He sucked it gently, making Fiat moan, before he suddenly pulled back again.

Fiat was ready to throw hands at Leo by now. What was going on exactly?

Leo rolled to the side of the side pulling in Fiat to cuddle with him.

"Damn it Fiat. I can't let you go and neither can I go all the way today."

"But why? I am ready.", complained Fiat, who was ready to punch Leo if he did not bring his lips back to where they were.

"We will do it. Very soon. But not today."

"Leooooo...you think I can sleep right now?"

"Haha. You think I can? With you this close to me? But I won't let you go. We have been apart for way too long. But for now, let's just sleep."

"I don't want to.", Fiat pouted.

Leo adored this, this childish and impulsive side of him. 

He pulled in Fiat's head to his chest and kissed it. "Just sleep. For now." And he hugged him tight.

Fiat tried to push away Leo. He was angry but Leo was too strong and he just ended up cuddling with him. Fiat gave up and just placed his head on Leo's chest. He would give in for now, but not for long.

Leo smiled. He knew it would happen soon. But tonight, they both needed to rest and process things. And then, they would be together.

To be Continued......... (update coming soon)