Pietro Maximoff Imagines

"Panic"

request by @queer_whore
A/N: panic attacks happen, also kinda long; so idk if I wrote what panic attacks are really like so don't come at me
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Y/N's Pov:
We just came back from a mission. It was supposed to be simple. Reid a hydra base, steal an important file, and leave. simple. But no. It went south. We had not expected more hydra agents to come. You know it would have been easy to take them out if we had more people, but we didn't. So we couldn't call for back up, forcing us to retreat. Without the file.

I was leading the mission of course. I had brought some of shields agents. So I was now being yelled at. Yes it is my fault for not bringing back up, but Fury's yelling was a bit harsh. "TELL ME WHY YOU DIDN'T THINK TO BRING BACK UP, MRS. Y/L/N. "I underestimated how many hydra agents there would be" "I SEE THAT. THIS WAS A STUPID MISTAKE." Did I mention that I hate being yelled at. I REALLY wanted to burst into tears right now, but I wasn't gonna do that in front of my boss.

" You know Y/L/N, I thought you were better. I'm disappointed. I chose YOU to retrieve this important file, but I chose wrong. I'm thinking if you even DESERVE to be on the Avengers." "Im sorry Sir, i'll be smarter next time." Fury glared at me then yelled. "GET OUT OF MY OFFICE."

I quickly nodded then ran out the door. What I didn't know was that the avengers were watching the whole thing.

I ran down the hall bursting into tears. I repeatedly clicked the elevator button, wanting to get to my room as fast as possible. Sobs racked through my body as I stood in elevator, rushing out once it got to my floor. I rushed into my room and slammed the door behind me then sliding down the wall.

Back at the avengers they were just discussing what happened. "That was a little harsh don't you think" Tony said. "Yeah, I know she should have brought more back up, but she is still so young and this is like the first mission she has failed." Nat said. "Uh maybe someone should check on her" Wanda said. "I will" Pietro quickly volunteered the started towards my room.

"How could I be so stupid" I said. A million thoughts raced through my mind. How did I not see this coming. I should have known there would be more agents. I'm such a failure. The team and Fury already know it. What if they kick me off. Fury already said he was thinking about it. Where would I go. They are my family, I can't leave them. I need them.

As I was thinking my breathing became more erratic. My body started shaking. I was hyperventilating. I was muttering small no's. Tears steamed down my face freely. I was still battered and bruised, cuts bleeding from the mission. I rocked back and forth trying to calm my self, but I couldn't.

I barley made out the knock on the door next to me, but I couldn't say anything. The door slowly creaked open then I hear someone say my name and sit down next to me. "Y/N, princessa what's wrong." I heard the voice of my best freind Pietro. I tried replying but couldn't speak, instead a small whimper and small sobs came from me. I tried catching my breath but couldn't.

"Y/N I need you to calm down and breath" he said as he took my my hands in his. "I-I-I can't" I managed to breath out. He picked me up and put me in his lap. "Listen to my breathing and breath with it." I listened to his heart beat already calming down with it and then managed to match my breath with his. After I had calmed down and stopped shaking I just kept on sobbing. "Can you tell me what's wrong now" he asked softly, stroking my hair. "I m-messed up, i-i'm so stupid and I don't w-wanna go." "Princessa, I know you messed up but you are not stupid and your not going anywhere." "B-but Fury will kick me off the team, h-he said he doesn't even know if I deserve to be on t-the team." I said. My sobs now turned into small sniffles and a few stray tears. "Y/N look at me." He said, his accent coming out stronger. I looked up at him with my tear stained, red, puffy face.

Even though she looked like this Pietro thought she was till so beautiful.

"You are not going to get kicked off the team, you deserve to be on the team, ok? Fury was just mad and he didn't know what he was saying." He said kissing my forehead. "O-ok"

"Are you alright now" "Yeah I guess" He stood up, picking me up with him so his hands were holding my thighs and my arms were around his neck, our chest touching. He walked to the bathroom and set me down. "Can you take off your suit so I can clean you up" I nodded, starting to take my suit off, good thing I had shorts and a sports bra on under. Even if I didn't have them on under I felt comfortable and safe around Pietro, also considering I had a huge crush on him.

When I was done, he picked me up and sat me on the bathroom counter. I threw my hair up in a messy bun, still sniffling occasionally. He started cleaning up my cuts, which I winced at almost every one he touched. "I know, i'm sorry princessa, this is the last one." I nodded. He cleaned up after he was done and quickly sped out of the room. I started crying again though.

Pietro came back with a sweat shirt and a pair of shorts in his hand he walked over to me, where I was till sitting in the counter, setting down the clothes. "Princessa what's wrong? Why are you crying?" He asked putting on hand in my thigh, caressing it and the other on my waist "I-I just feel bad for making you do all of this for me and I feel w-weak." "No no no, don't feel bad, I want to do this for you and you are not weak."

We both looked at each other for a couple moments then started leaning in, our lips met. It was slow and passionate. We broke apart so you know, we could breath. I leaned into his chest and whispered "thank you" "Anytime my love."

He handed me his sweatshirt and a pair of my sweat pants. I dropped down from the counter and put the clothes on. He grabbed my hand and led me to my bed, making sure I got in first before he went over to the other side climbing in. He pulled me towards him, I turned to my side letting my head rest on his chest and one arm lay over his waist. One of his arms wrapped around me, slowly caressing my arm, the other behind his head.

My eyes started closing only a minute after we settled down, the mission and all that happened had tired me out. "I love you Pietro" I said sleepily. He chucked quietly "I love you to Y/N" He whispered then kissed my head. Both of us falling into darkness.
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Words: 1270
woahhhhhhhh, that was a long one. I had a lot of fun writing this one. sorry if this is not how panic attacks work, i've never experienced one.